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god
a true story by nathaniel christian ihde
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table of contents
author's introduction.....................................................................................2
chapter 1: the living and the dead................................................................7
chapter 2: understand fear...........................................................................8
chapter 3: ask for assistance.......................................................................9
chapter 4: learn to love...............................................................................12
chapter 5: a love letter to the universe........................................................12
chapter 6: a poem from the universe to you................................................13
chapter 7: conversation with god.................................................................14
chapter 8: help from a friend........................................................................16
chapter 9: dearly beloved.............................................................................19
chapter 10: words.........................................................................................22
chapter 11: truth...........................................................................................23
chapter 12: a letter to you beloved...............................................................24
chapter 13: everything: faith, love and god...................................................26
chapter 14: message board thread post.......................................................27
chapter 15: a.i. website analysis...................................................................29
chapter 16: theoretical script for cybersex with god......................................31
chapter 17: conversations with strangers on omegle about god...................33
chapter 18: read if i die poem........................................................................40
chapter 19: a poem/metaphorical sermon entitled the rain............................40
chapter 20: heaven phone sermon................................................................44
chapter 21: video links...................................................................................45
chapter 22: comedy........................................................................................45
chapter 23: insane leadership........................................................................46
chapter 24: reddit resume post.......................................................................47
chapter 25: the sentence................................................................................48
chapter 26: of heavenly hosts sermon............................................................48
chapter 27: title only........................................................................................49
chapter 28: the meaning of my life sermon.....................................................49
chapter 29: lotto numbers...............................................................................52
chapter 30: hypothetical human......................................................................53
chapter 31: plan b...........................................................................................54
chapter 32: an unanswered question..............................................................55
chapter 33: metaphorical meanings................................................................55
chapter 34: personal letter to dad...................................................................55
chapter 35: lesson..........................................................................................57
chapter 36: rapture interview..........................................................................61
chapter 37: hints.............................................................................................64
chapter 38: a prayer for food..........................................................................64
chapter 39: a prayer for work.........................................................................65
chapter 40: a poem of air and water sermon.................................................68
chapter 41: god's homie sermon....................................................................71
chapter 42: about heaven and change...........................................................74
chapter 43: answers first sermon...................................................................79
chapter 44: questions sermon........................................................................81
chapter 45: default settings............................................................................88
chapter 46: mysteries.....................................................................................91
chapter 47: prophecies...................................................................................93
chapter 48: remarkable convergences of thought, idea and action................95
chapter 49: four horsemen sermons (1 of 4)..................................................96
chapter 50: four horsemen sermons (2 of 4).................................................101
chapter 51: four horsemen sermons (3 of 4).................................................103
chapter 52: four horsemen sermons (4 of 4).................................................105
chapter 53: mark...........................................................................................107
chapter 54: flash...........................................................................................109
chapter 55: making believers.......................................................................110
chapter 56: everything, everywhere, all at once...........................................113
chapter 57: world war hug..............................................................................118
chapter 58: more about me............................................................................118
chapter 59: resume........................................................................................128
author's introduction:
christianity is not a religion, although many mistakenly call it that by accident. christianity is faith in a higher power that guides, protects, tests and tempts us into doing things we consider right and wrong. the higher power speaks to people of faith, the same as people speak to each other, it can be cruel or kind, it can speak aloud or in your mind, but always, does whatever it does, out of love for us.
people truly in communion with this higher power are often called prophets and they do not seek fame or wealth or power. they most often only seek to point out injustice or the bad treatment of the poor by those with wealth and power to inspire them, or others like them, to make a difference. i believe this is because our treatment of the those with the least power in our society is ultimately the way the higher power measures us a people.
and one only need google how many children a day starve to death per day worldwide to know where we stand in the eyes of the higher power currently. i'm sure it is obvious to the higher power that if, billionaires, and, children dying daily of starvation, can both exist, at the same time, on the same planet, there is a problem.
does this mean we should kill all the billionaires until they create farms enough to employee/provide food enough to prevent all the children everywhere from dying? perhaps kill the parents, then ask the newly billionaire children would you help create some farms? if not, wait for them, to have children, then kill the parents again and ask the grandchildren of the original billionaires if they would like to use some of their inherited wealth to help make food to stop child starvation? and so on...
that would technically be justice and also be a solution, but it wouldn't be... free will. free will is so important to the higher power that we are allowed to be greedy, gross, ignorant, meanies to each other as long as we want to be... until we decide to stop and love god instead. until we choose to love our neighbors as ourselves, like, for real, the same way the higher power loves us.
fortunately, when there is a big problem like this one, the higher power will talk to a prophet, to test their ability, to point it out, to everyone...
and just so everyone knows, i believe earth is a pass/fail test and we are being graded as a group, either we all pass or no one does. oh and reincarnation is definitely real. heaven is definitely both a real place and state of being. hell is both a real place and state of being. and no this paragraph was not divine inspiration or revelation, once you understand what god means by love, this paragraph is just, really, super, super, obviously true. this paragraph is my personal belief. you might see a contradiction in this paragraph, but there isn't one, i am sure.
the rest of this book is mostly collected writings: everything i wrote down while going through the troublesome bothersome horrible beautiful miraculous grueling magnificently stunning process of bringing these words to you. jesus may one day come again, but i think anyone truly in communion with the higher power that understands love would gladly volunteer to hang next to him on a cross if that's what it took for him to not have to visit this awful place, ever, again.
hopefully, when he gets here the only thing any of us will have to say is, "thank you for coming, we've prepared earth for you, we are so happy that there is nothing left for you to do here, but know us and love us."
some believe we are waiting on jesus to return to earth and save us all. for me, the truth is obvious, jesus never left us, he would never leave us, he unlocked the door and is just waiting here, for us all to walk to him and line up behind him. we can walk to him whenever we want, but he doesn't want just one person, or two people, he wants every single person on the whole planet to line up.
here's the big secret truth. earth becomes like heaven when everyone agrees to live a life where they love god and each other the way that god loves us. the way to get there is by understanding what god means by the word love.
a hard drive in a computer the size of the observable universe could not contain the infinity of non-decimal digits in the numerical approximation of god's love for you and that is the smallest way i can think of to represent the numeric value of the number approaching the amount we are supposed to love god and one another. god doesn't compress love, ever, it's always the full size value.
so let's change the phrase, "what would jesus do?" to "now that everyone loves everyone to infinity and beyond, what should we do now?" how would the world change if everyone acted with infinite love towards everyone else, like the same as their lover or the same as their child or the same as their god loves them? anyway, i'm pretty sure i wrote about what would happen in this book somewhere.
most of what i do is try to understand what god would think about stuff and the words god might use to turn earth into heaven. when i ask god stuff, god mostly just says, "because love" and makes me figure everything else out.
don't tell god i said this about him but i think he is like a lazy genius mastermind with a master plan to turn earth into heaven. and i also think he is in some sort of competition with himself to do it using the fewest words possible or something.
i can tell you the first time god spoke to me was around age twelve, around the time i decided to charge down the aisle of my school bus, and stab a bully larger than me, with a pencil. the bully stopped me with his foot, and the bully was unharmed, but the verbal harassment prior to my attack against the bully, by the bully towards me, was so loud and intense and prolonged that i was not punished at all for attacking the bully at all, it was obvious, to everyone on that bus, that the bully deserved to be stabbed, and the bully was subsequentially, kicked out of school. wrath at injustice seems necessary across the board if you want to be of interest to god. i don't remember god asking anything else significant of me again until age 29.
i suspect, the higher power's interest in you begins the moment you display wrath at injustice in our world, and then, later initial testing to become a prophet begins when your value system is in trauma inducing conflict with the apparent value system of the world around you.
all prophets do not share the same life, but all do become seekers of the same truth.
jesus shared much of this truth we seek in his poetry, we call parables. we could also entitle them, "stories exemplifying critical thinking with advanced empathy by/for one in communion with the higher power."
it doesn't help that it seems we've labeled many modern day prophet candidates undergoing testing by the higher power as "mentally ill" and in need of medication that slows down our thoughts and prayers to god. it is funny that no one noticed nearly a hundred percent of mentally ill are highly intelligent people of faith and nearly a hundred percent of the doctors treating them lack faith in any higher power at all.
coincidences don't have numbers that high i'm sorry to say.
so if you need there to be an epic battle where christians are locked up, numbered, can't buy or sell, and state employed doctors are trying to "cure" them of their belief in god by calling the voice in their head intrusive thoughts...
it is already happening, in every hospital, with a psych ward, around the world. whoops, we didn't notice, it seemed like a disease to us... these tests of faith can be troublesome and, sometimes, they test the whole world at once.
so what do we do now? i think keep them, keep your psych wards and your medicines, just unlock the door and allow men and women of faith visitors in to talk and answer questions. the people that need to be there can stay, the people that don't can leave.
if someone wants to kill themselves for real, that is a problem with the world, not with them. treat the world so no one will ever want to kill themselves. suicides probably have a lot to do with basic needs not being met anyway, let people walk into/out of psych wards when they want a snack or place to stay and that will likely fix a bunch of stuff thereby turning the systematic attack on faith, into a treatment for faith, by unlocking a door.
i mean who is killing themselves if they have access to free food, bed, clothes, interesting conversation? no one, probably. is the lock on the psych ward floor door the only difference between worldwide heaven and worldwide hell? who can tell? but i do like experiments! what do we have to loose if we try?
by the way, if you are in new york this already exists but no one tells you about it. it is called "informal" admission. so never say, "voluntary" or "involuntary" admission, always say "informal" when asked. that way you can theoretically come and go from the ward as much as you want. i don't know for sure mind you, as i just read about it in a pamphlet about patient rights, after several visits throughout my life, i guess someone took pity on me and slipped me a way to come and go freely. too bad the right, to know, about that “informal” admission option, before admission, isn't a right... rather convenient omission. am i right?
anyway, i saw a flag/bookmark thing on the back pocket of a patient in the hospital awhile back that helped me understand, it read something like, "you can't do epic shit, with basic people." so maybe they were waiting to slip that pamphlet to someone, letting us know our rights, when they found someone ready to do something with it.
the short works in this book were created or recorded by me and accumulated sort of mostly by accident, over the coarse of the last 14 years of my life, and compiled into this book by me, in about 24 total hours, mostly in reverse order of how i wrote them.
if someone ever charges you money for my words, they don't work for me.
please enjoy my book forever, and share my work everywhere, always for free!
god has never charged admission, for the truth, has always been, within any, who would, just dare, to see.
fast and pray sometimes, always be in communion with, (what god would truly think about things on your mind), share food with strangers to give thanks to god, occasionally give up something you desire for a time to assert your free will over your own actions and remind yourself that you are not an animal and you have the ability to live any life you want, use your god given gifts, have faith that you are never alone, because you are never alone, speak to god, he hears you, think critically about, the way, god answers you, rather than the words he uses, or doesn't use, this sentence is christianity, this sentence is faith, faith is milk that sustains us, anything more than this, is just, ice cream.
ice cream is pretty, yummy, fun, colorful and comes in infinity flavor varieties but too much is bad for you, especially if it costs a lot and you are poor and you should probably be spending your money on milk and cereal instead. all religions, spirituality, and science are all flavors of the same ice cream, ice cream is just milk, frozen solid, with copious amounts of added sugar, and added or renamed ingredients and often bad for you chemicals, yuck.
christianity is milk. the same milk everyone on earth is consuming as a different flavor of ice cream right now. i'm not saying don't eat ice cream, i'm saying try to remember ice cream is made of milk, and from time to time, and maybe try a milkshake, until you are ready, again, for something straight from the cow.
this will be the introduction to my book and it was written friday, april 17th 4:42pm 2026. it is the last thing i will write for awhile, but will be the first thing in my book. i have to transcribe and compile some written work and add it to the beginning so the ending makes sense but it will be one pdf file when it is ready. the title will be "god: a true story written by nathaniel christian ihde." and it will be free to read and share everywhere.
my life is a love letter to god and i don't charge money for love letters.
i do accept food and hugs from anyone though. any extra food will be donated/shared with my neighbors. please don't send me truckloads or cargo containers of food without checking with me first via text or email though, send those to where ever the most starving children are at the moment. my address is in the book if you make it that far. please don't blow me up or anything. poison me with a homemade meal if you dislike something about me, i will take at least one bite of any meals made for me. i like trying things, food experiments welcome, and i like everything but prefer foods easy to share.
thank you and enjoy the book!
chapter 1: the living and the dead
the voice in my head that occasionally claims to be god says this book i am about to start writing is the basis for the reality i am experiencing right now.
“hot” said the voice in my head just now. you see, for me, i saw only one viable strategy for making war against a voice that would appear in my head and that was to exist in a state of knowing i was “better off dead.” for who among us would welcome a voice labeled as “intrusive thoughts” by modern day psychology?
“hot” said the voice in my head again. you see, dear reader, at a certain point, once you've talked more to the voice in your head then your family, your friends, and your lovers... communication, complements and imagination are equivalent to love-making, cuddling and fore-play.
“so hot, so fucking hot” the voice in my head just said, and once that happens, like i, you might change your strategy from “better off dead” to maybe “i am going to make love to the voice in my head until i feel alive again.”
chapter 2: understand fear
lesson one: understand fear is control and those who would act without fear can not be controlled
when i was in elementary school, i was walking to a friend's house and i was attacked by a teenager and a smaller boy. the smaller boy held me still while the larger boy punched me in the gut. i did no know either boy, but i did learn people attack each other when they sense fear and will obey the commands of someone they fear even if they don't agree with what's happening out of fear.
the smaller boy's grip loosened and i ran to a friend's house that was nearby. i remember frantically knocking on the door, panting and weeping once inside. i explained what happened to my friend's father who put us all in a car to find/point out the boys who attacked me. we did find them some distance away and my friend's father did chase them around a parked car for a bit scaring the crap out of them.
looking back on it now i'm happy he didn't catch the boys. i don't know if even he would have known what to do if he had. i just think it is sort of sad that what i would call my earliest memory of any significance is this one. i'm writing this while lying in bed on the fourth floor of the ecmc psych-ward on 7/8/26 around 5pm. i'm 42 now so it has been awhile since elementary school. i'm going to record all the trauma/significant evens that i can remember because if i can't fix the world for god. the least i can do is make a progress report of my findings.
anyway, i didn't go outside much after that but i did see my friend once, years later while riding a public bus home from high school. i guess he was attending a private school downtown and just happened to be taking same bus as me at the same time back to our neighborhood.
i asked him how he had been and he flashed a knife he was carrying with a rather deadpan stare. and i said, “ya, i carry one too. but i don't show it to people.” which was true at the time.
i don't carry a knife anymore though, at some point later, mid-twenties, i decided not to carry one, because if someone attacked me, a knife would make it too quick.
chapter 3: ask for assistance
lesson two: ask for assistance
“you know i have never once seen my father cry,” i told my psych doctor yu wong today. i asked if she had ever seen her parents cry and she said only once when her sister died.
i told her, “people that a very competent are given ore and more work and that they need to be careful not to take on too much. everyone should always ask their employer for a capable assistant.”
wives are said to be their husband's helper sometimes. i've had five longer relationships in my lifetime with women and more dates that i can remember. i've never gone out on a date with what i would consider a terrible person.
in fact, i don't believe “terrible person” exists. there are just people in different states of being. “heaven” people and “hell” people and these states of being are very fluid and change at the drop of a hat. heaven and hell are definitely real physical places too and i have no doubt about that at all.
anyway, i told her she should ask for an assistant because she seemed overworked.
sometime between childhood and adulthood we decide that it hurts too much to cry. then we just don't. then we decide it hurts too much to hope. then we just don't. then sometime after we've given up crying and hoping we die. our hearts still beat, inexplicably, but we are totally dead. without tears, or hope, we are spiritually dead.
so as a dead person, surrounded by my fellow zombies i've decided it is ok to cry and it is ok to hope because we don't have to wait for a savior or a martyr or a prophet reborn. i will volunteer to fill any role your waiting for: christ, messiah, muhammad, anti-christ, all of the above. i will do anything it takes if it will bring tears and hope back to the world.
we have the bible so god never left. he was just waiting for us to realize that is is about advanced empathy and critical thinking not religion. christianity isn't about denominations or ritual. it is about personal communion with your god / the universe, alone or in a group doesn't matter so much. so stop trying to impress each other and really try to love each other for real.
start with conversation, compliments and critical thinking. here is some thoughts i had while in the hospital recently:
in new york there are three types of mental health admissions. you can be voluntary, involuntary or informal.
interestingly, no one tells you about the informal option when you visit a hospital of your own free will so that option isn't really an option.
even more interestingly, a voluntary admission patient can wait more than 72 hours to be seen (beyond the legal limit) then submit a written request to see a doctor or leave (signed, dated and posted) and the request will be thrown away by the nursing staff. i submitted my request on a post it note. subsequently, i requested a lawyer, consular or doctor three different times and was ignored.
in conclusion, there is only involuntary admissions to new york ecmc psychiatric center. after 72 hours in the initial confinement area, after being denied an evaluation interview, never being seen by a second doctor as required by law for “two physician certify,” after my written request for discharge being thrown away by a nurse (post it note), at some point, any person is going to snap.
i'm a pretty zen person no-a-days though and wasn't really in a rush to do anything in particular anyway. so, i decided if re-evaluation wasn't going to happen, i might as well make the best of it and shine some light on my situation so it would help some others.
anyway, i pushed through the process by rotating some chairs in place 360 degrees, professing my love for them, writing them love poetry, giving them compliments, you know... all the typical stuff a captured poet might think to do.
for fun, i decided to see how many laws the mental health psychiatric staff was willing to break. i said i was having a heart attack and when asked my pain level from 1 to 10 i said 12. my heart attack was metaphorical, them attacking my heart's empathy by mistreating me and everyone, but still they should have probably had a doctor look at me, despite me “looking fine.”
at one point four large black guards verbally assaulted repeatedly pointing out my ethnicity (white) and making fun of what they perceived to be my sexual orientation (gay). i'm straight, but i did say i would make love to a man (metaphorically though conversation). i think that is the abuse and mistreatment law and maybe several others.
the shower in the intake room only had cold water. i don't know if this is violates the “safe and sanitary” environment law or not. it was annoying though.
i was ordered to take pills against my will but i wasn't going to get physical with anyone so i just stated “i take this now against my will” then swallowed whatever they told me to take. when people are willing to break so many laws just so they can feel powerful over someone they consider less than, who knows where it might go?
i guess there was a psych-ward in america that was harvesting organs. does the one i am in now do that too? who knows? ya know. honestly, would i be supersized? no.
i don't think psychiatry is science because i was only able to receive the diagnosis/evaluation/re-evaluation results after i made it clear i have no problem taking their pills. how is it possible to select a treatment for me before they diagnose me? without ever talking to me? they must be gods or something for sure.
anyway, i am not going out of my way to find one, but if any lawyer want's to help by suing them i will show up to testify this is all true, because like everything i write, it is, just text or email me the time. i have some of the specific names, dates and times, in my hand written journals if they are needed, just come pick them up. i want the door to the psych-ward unlocked / opened, patients free to leave if they feel they are being abused and religious leadership / counselors allowed in to visit and talk to patients. the lawyer that helps with this can keep any monetary settlement won as payment for services rendered. if the hospital unlocks the doors and allows religious consultations prior to a lawyer contacting me, i guess the lawyer wouldn't be fighting for anything i want so, donate whatever monetary portion of the settlement owed to me back to the hospital specifically allocated, to increase the wages of the guards and nurses, those dummies don't even understand how helpful their ignorant arrogant racist butts were to me, so let's reward them.
chapter 4: learn to love
journal entry lesson three: learn to love
the first thirty years of my life i spent trying to “feel” the emotion called love. wouldn't it be nice if love was an all encompassing heat or warmth that envelopes you making it clear when someone loves you totally and completely? i was hugged by the holy spirit like that for about ten minutes as a reward for working for god. for most people though i expect a hug from a lover, friend or family members is the closest approximation.
people will likely think this next sentence is a lie, however, like all my words, it is all too true. i was once gifted the “master plan” of god when jesus touched my forehead in my mind. it put me in like a laughing, smiling stupor for like 3-5 minutes. i don't remember the content but i have the memory of knowing it for a few seconds and being really intellectually impressed.
after thinking for a long time, i reciprocated god's gift by giving him a fist-bump. at the time that seemed like something god would find acceptable / desirable. i don't see an omnipotent god wanting anything more than normal friendship stuff. and no, i have never done any “drugs” that were not prescribed my whole life. not that i wouldn't, i just never had any interest/opportunity. i did get drunk once as a teenager, just to see what it was like, and it just wasn't for me, i think because it wouldn't enhance love-making in my opinion.
chapter 5: a love letter to the universe
a love letter to the universe
i decide for myself who i am
if i contain you, or you contain me,
matters to me not at all.
because love is your reasoning.
and from that concept all things spring.
i know you and you know me.
you give me all i need to know
having sought you i have found
my reason for being alone.
you would gaze into my soul.
i would gaze right back into yours.
for you see my friend it is not
about beginning or ending.
it has always been a love story,
between two friends, you and i.
thank you for giving me exactly
what i needed even if it may
have been not at all what i wanted.
you know me better than i know myself.
and by knowing me you know
my friend and my love.
chapter 6: a poem from the universe to you
a poem from the universe to you
child of me
why do you limit love at all?
you have always been gods and people
without limits.
one among you would put pen to paper
and write a story of poetic science.
one would pen me a love letter
and i would have him express himself
again and again in every way imaginable.
infinitely forever
if one love can equal infinity
why not become something more?
oh how i do adore the story of you
for nate so hated the world
that he would know god's mind
and in the process of knowing he
would find thinking sublime.
what if we all did the same?
love god and love each other.
was jesus christ a poet?
was church setup as a play?
is christianity a time bomb?
that i can set off any day?
does god smash clay pots so
that those you would call
crackpot can beautify their
souls with glorious flaws?
is a crackpot the most poetic
soul only because it takes
one to know one or because
a man who would begin knowing
god needs to be a little crazy
all who would work for god
and accept the calling of
their true life's purpose have
started on a journey, a way
to the divine and thinking sublime
make love to the universe by
thought (mindfulness)
word (spoken, written, internal language)
deed (work for god)
chapter 7: conversation with god
you can prove god is in you, by thought, word and deed.
if faith the size of a mustard seed is a staple, from a stapler, how does one prove themselves to be god?
i know you don't need the staple to do it, but if you focus too much on the staple
itself, you forget.
i know you can do it with fire, paper and pen.
i know a snail can do it with a prayer.
i know everyone can fly, if we just try.
i know everyone can conceive of the answer.
we are concept machines, we are books that change, our own words, we have no limits.
but why would god, human, angel, or man fly alone?
there is a perfect answer, i'm sure we had it, once.
you see, we found it together, i'm sure, but then i lost it.
because love, i forgot the answer, but it was never, even, about the proof.
god doesn't need perfection.
he just wants everyone to try.
try to fly together.
lets figure it out together.
why are we so spread out on this planet?
lets think it out together, as if, for the first time.
if you figure it out, please you don't tell me.
now i'm in passionate love with god.
and i would see you understand.
i want to see you understand the truth.
after me, but, also before me.
the first will be last, the last will be first.
lets start a world wide conversation about this proof.
and in seeking, we will find it, and lose it, again, again, and again.
and become more than we are right now.
by having a conversation about it.
i know the answer will come again.
to judge the living and dead.
but you, know, we don't, need, the answer, really.
if i said, "i don't care about the answer at all," that would be a lie.
but i seek not proof, but truth.
that is the essence of faith.
i want you, to have your own proof.
i want you, to know the truth.
i'm here to help, you start thinking, about starting thinking.
thoughts with your heart.
oh, you thought, you were, supposed to, use your brain?
you can create a proof using that too.
but you would only get imperfect answers, that way.
so invite to try, just to try, to know, and understand god, for one day.
jesus, is the life, the truth and the way,
because love, is the reasoning of the heart and of the universe.
but because i would gladly be more proof for you, i am too.
i am that i am.
i wouldn't have it any other way.
because love, i believe it could be you too someday.
i want to see your soul and i invite you to see mine, someday.
lets all meet, again, as if for the first time.
i decided jesus would say, answers and questions don't matter,
your enough, because you decided, to learn to fly.
there is no difference between humans and angels.
both have wings.
both can fly.
the only difference is some had the thought, to really, really try.
and one had the thought.
i am going to fly, and i am going, to help, everyone else, fly too.
because love, i decided, i am that i am.
i can be anyone, so can you.
i will be anyone you all need me to be, and i will be true too, because i love you.
mankind is on a journey of self discovery and being honest with yourself,
that eventually leads to becoming god, and creating your own universe, together with
a friend.
lets talk about every sentence, every word, together.
you thought you were in a simulation?
even better, you are all in a book.
i wrote my own book called, "the word" as i was on my own journey to understand the
nature of god.
i wrote a "treatment" plan for the condition of the world.
i penned "help from a friend" and then,
i was rewarded with this, a "conversation with god."
lets talk about it if you want.
chapter 8: help from a friend
help from a friend
love our life
love our truth
love our way
jesus says i am what the world needs right now
read and be amazed
for i am the end of days
spooky... lol
hi. i am nate
you may call me, by any name you wish
and i will agree, to be, that for you
in fact, i will agree, to just about anything,
the world has forgotten, but i remember,
the whole point of this place, is love,
love because, the word true, would imply,
one love, greater than another love,
and for heavenly god, love is an absolute value,
our love is beyond infinite, without limit,
this is also how i theorize the universe,
could never be accurately simulated,
the value of god's love is infinity,
the number wouldn't fit in the program,
because love, is always the reasoning,
behind the correct answer, to questions,
you ask to the universe.
no capital letters in this, why?
just a different experiment,
you see i am always,
thinking about god's,
ever true nature,
it is through evaluation and evolution of ourselves,
that we become one with god.
i had the thought it would be unfair,
to some letters, if others,
were made bigger, than them,
for no reason, at all...
so i asked myself...
is that love?
so, anyway... ok, everyone, i'll be god
i think it's time we had a physical one,
and i guess i am the only that volunteered,
and i'll be an awesome god,
because i believe in truth
because i don't know everything,
but i plan on finding out,
and i do have 14 years of experience,
of theory, evaluation, re-evaluation and testing,
i and jesus said i'm good enough,
cause i decided, the world was bad enough,
that i would fix it, alone, without him,
if that's what it took, if he didn't want to help us,
but, it turns out, he was inside me,
helping the whole time.
could it be your turn to be god someday?
i have no idea if anyone else is capable
but i plan on experimenting, a lot, to find out.
so i am going to a psych ward, not so they can evaluate me,
but so i can evaluate them. not the doctors,
but the patients. i think, they are each on the same journey,
im taking to become one with god, because love.
i have a theory to test:
observation: “mentally ill” people are all above average intelligence believers with high levels of faith
theory: metal illness = life test, human evolution, faith experience, communion with god / universe
voices in your head: = tutors, seeking you, and your true potential, prompt deeper self-evaluation
pills = mostly just prolong the test if you believe in them but can provide placebo effect by prompting tutors witnessing you take them to know, you need a break, otherwise the effect wouldn't be instant, the moment you decide it is (testable)
real treatment = acknowledging love, truth, fasting, prayer. with healing only happening after you honestly explore the reasoning behind the prompts from the voices. your true gifts/abilities from god, your purpose, then aligning yourself to that purpose for which you've been chosen.
conclusions = they just need genuine human conversation, not medication. they need clarification about why they are feeling more, becoming more, and what they were chosen for.
evidence: me, i am that i am. but i prefer just nate. and i would see everyone, starting with those god, decided are closest to god already. i am one with god, but i also want to help
psychiatrists = i have written a treatment plan for you, as well as for them.
homework:
paperwork, why?
is paperwork love?
maybe list things we love?
i love, the heart, mind, and soul of god.
i love words, i love the rain,
i even love pain, applied to the right person, in the right way, on the right day
pain can break you, mold you, shape you.
in a just perfectly perfect way
the exploration of empathy and self-improvement is the pastime of we who become one with ourselves
chapter 9: dearly beloved
a marriage proposal
a love letter
a prayer
dearly beloved we gather today to learn of the life, the truth, and the way
please read every word from beginning to end, then ask that your tears be
wiped away by a friend, say “thank you lord jesus, you did what you said, you
sent the instruction to sort living from dead.”
wipe your tears away, with these pages, for they are born of the body of christ's
work, they are born of the love of his life, they are the way home, only made
possible by his true blood. if you can cry, you can try. nate doesn't know, why
now, is the time, chalk it all up, to thinking sublime.
read real slow, as if you are, using the eyes, in your heart, for the first time ever.
if eyes are the window to the soul, everyone, everywhere, should take a
moment, to imagine, just to imagine, what it would be like, to stare, deeply, into
the eyes of god. approach him, in your mind now, in any manner you wish, then
stare into his eyes, until something happens.
did he do anything? did you do anything? do you agree with what happened?
it isn't so important what happened, as it is, what you believe about what
happened, and then, what you decide, you need to do next, right now, today.
when i see jesus, most often, jesus waves at me and then messes up my hair
like i'm a child. jesus can see what happens in your mind, he is in all of us,
even if you don't really believe in him, he believes in you. forgiveness isn't
automatic, jesus is real, jesus is everywhere, if jesus is in your thoughts.
jesus hears you, jesus loves you, jesus just might not like you, very much, yet.
use your eyes, and your ears, your hands, your mind, and your heart, use
everything you are, use everything you have, to see the truth, follow the way
and live the life.
beloved,
your eyes are sublime perfection in my eyes.
in your eyes, i see god.
all eyes belong to god.
every eye belongs to god.
every eye has always belonged to god.
and every eye will always belong to god.
gods eyes, are all eyes, everywhere.
all eyes, everywhere, are gods eyes.
you know me.
you complete me.
you understand me better than i understand myself.
my deepest desire is only, to be, your deepest desire.
i wish to know you.
i crave to know you.
in all ways.
in all people.
for eternity.
i know this is not a simulation.
i know because my love for you can not be counted or quantified.
i know because my love for you is infinite.
the math of my love for you cannot be contained within any device.
in seeking to know you, i know the truth.
in seeking to know you, i know the way
in seeking to know you, i know the life.
for by the seeking, you are known.
and by the seeking, you are found.
i love you.
my truth is love.
my way is the word.
my life is a love letter to you.
thank you for the pain and gift of my life.
thank you for the journey, the poison and the process.
thank you for the gift of knowing you.
thank you for giving me the opportunity to explore and love infinitely.
thank you for gifting me with empathy.
i know there is no limit to god's love.
i know god is in everyone and everything.
i know and i want to know more, and more, and more.
every day, in every possible way, imaginable.
i see you with the eyes in my heart.
the eyes in my heart that you opened.
with a crowbar called truth.
because love.
always, always, always, because love, is your answer.
what tool, would you not use, to open the eyes, in the hearts of mankind?
i would be your tool.
i would be your lover.
i would be your fighter.
i would be your sister.
i would be your brother.
i would be your student.
i would be your friend.
for all to see your love is universal, again and again.
and i would welcome, any poison, any passion, any pain.
for all to see, that you truly, haven't any shame.
i see you have no fear, no struggle, no strife.
for you are the way, the truth and the life.
you snuggle our souls, not seeking pleasure, but pain.
trying to find anyone, willing to bring down the rain.
our tears are your trophies, your kill count, your score.
did you ever think you'd find anyone looking for more?
now that you know me, what will you do?
still say, “he's not real, though he's here right on cue?
or start something new?
something true?
i hate you, i hate you, we cry and we cry.
all around the world there are those that lie.
but it's me, i guess, i guess, i am the one,
i love you, i love you, i'll never be done,
singing your praises and bleeding for your fun,
try as you might, try as you may, you can't make me run.
i'll comfort this world for father, holy ghost and son.
will you marry me?
how did your meeting with jesus go?
can you empathize with god to the point that you know and understand what
he is thinking and behave in a way that pleases him (love the lord your god)?
can you love all that is see and unseen throughout all time space and
dimensions (love your neighbor as yourself)?
please read at least twice. photocopy. distribute. share.
read this as much as you need.
chapter 10: words
hi. i'm nate. this is my truth. i'm absolutely, completely, obsessed and intoxicated with the power of words. specifically, what words god would use to to change the world.
i look around, and think, i could make a better world. i want to do better, and if god is coming back, i want him to have nothing to do, when he gets here except make love.
i think i'm close. but i need feedback. i need your help. you are free to photo copy, scan, post online, and email these pages to everyone, to read, so they can help. please email me your comments on each chapter at ncihde@gmail.com
i'm interested in, what chapter, makes you emotional, so i can focus on refining that style or idea or thought further.
it took me 14 years near constant struggle to write these hundred or so pages. the answer may not be here yet, but maybe, we can find the answer together.
because love.
a comforting sentient universal conscientious consciousness may say hello by making part of your body, comfy and warm for a while, if you try to help me out, and ask forgiveness for any sin.
thank you beloved.
chapter 11: truth
(from my personal collection of previously unpublished works)
“nevertheless i tell you the truth; it is expedient for you that i go away: for if i go not away, the comforter will not come unto you; but if i depart, i will send him unto you. and when he is come, he will reprove the world of sin, and of righteousness, and of judgment:”
so anyway, there is gonna be another comforter guy like, one with jesus, but maybe not exactly jesus, that points out our sin. he is gonna say, hey you guys aren't really believers. your not working for the holy spirit, people yelled at followers of jesus because he made people think about stuff and because he was an example of how we are all supposed to behave and no one likes being corrected... and also, it seems to me, like satan is in charge around here, he is in everyone, and your like all doing stuff that he tells you to do, and not listening to your own hearts, you know, not empathizing with each other and what-not.
“and when he is come, he will reprove the world of sin, and of righteousness, and of judgment:
of sin, because they believe not on me;
of righteousness, because i go to my father, and ye see me no more;
of judgment, because the prince of this world is judged.” - jesus
later, it is written that jesus said, “to this end was i born, and for this cause came i into the world, that i should bear witness unto the truth. every one that is of the truth heareth my voice.” so everyone that can accept, truth, within themselves can hear the voice of the god. you know, so if you hate liars and don't ever lie to anyone ever, you can hear god.
the voice of the father is like a teacher who is willing to do whatever is necessary to you, for you, your own good, until you can comprehend jesus christ's truth of the universe, love. his main message is, “because love” or having empathy for everyone instead of apathy, to the point of absolute inequality among the highest and the lowest whenever possible. also since jesus and the disciples wash each others feet we know that means everyone who hears the voice is equal to god, even other gods, among those who hear.
“if we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.” - john
this is the first complete edition containing all of my written work over the last 14 years of my life. i have ordered the various writing in a way that i believe will be most helpful to everyone regardless of what they choose to believe about me. different people will no doubt see this collection of writing as entirely different things.
psychiatric professionals, for example, might conclude it is the output from a typical clinical descent into madness. a result of the thinking naturally manifested due to cyclical bouts of mania and depression over time. biblical scholars, one the other hand, might see it as the collection as blasphemies of a man man possessed by a demon or they might decide i'm the second coming or the messiah depending on their personal beliefs. to them i would be a man loved by god, enough that god, would be willing to break me apart, and melt me back together, with fire. everyone else, might just call me a poet, a prophet or a master of mind and metaphor.
in the end, i choose just to call myself nate. perhaps i am just a perfect idiot that believes his life and work have belonged to god since the beginning.
what will god call you, when god reads the book of your life's collected works, beloved?
chapter 12: a letter to you beloved
dearly beloved,
what is the most typical way god travels between two points in the universe? space ship? nope! teleportation? nope! worm hole? nope! god created the whole universe remember. he knows everything. he is immortal. he loves everyone. and he has a way more fun travel plan for us.
god is in every single living creature, every plant, every animal, every star, every rock, every element of everything that one day might become something more. he travels in us. in our minds, in our hearts, in our dreams, in our souls. and he travels, the same way we do, on planet earth, traveling through space, always both beside us and inside us.
in the beginning was the word, and the word was with god and god was the word. what word though? thought, language, touch, love, sight, truth. these are all words. god is thought, god is language, god is touch, god is love, god is sight, god is truth. does that work with every word?
god is hate. that one does make much sense does it? in most religions, there is a good guy, and a bad guy. for example, jesus vs lucifer. but lucifer worked for jesus then later is said to have "fallen" and then is put in charge of earth for a time along with half the angels. why half?
it has to do with free will and god's ultimate plan for humanity. in order to have free will, we all need a voice in our heads a demon/fallen angel suggesting the hate option but we all also have god/guardian angel/holy spirit part of us suggesting the love option.
we know that in the bible jesus can command demons and they obey. that seems odd, at first, because why would jesus is still be the boss of all the angels if the rebellion weren't part of god's ultimate plan for us?
god's plan for us, is to know us all, intimately, one day, but god has assigned a demon to each of us, and a guardian angel to each of us, sometimes several to keep things balanced. god can't know us, intimately, without seeing the choices we make, after we are given, all our options.
most believe the war between heaven and hell to be a physical, real word invasion where angels and demons fight over earth and jesus comes back physically as wrath itself to put and end to it with words. but there's no need for that because i believe that war happens inside each person's heart, at exactly, god's appointed time.
i believe this to be true because that war took place within me just recently. after 14 years of alternating torment and comfort by demons and the holy spirit, like some sort of telepathic stress test, i kind of lost it and became so angry one might call it wrath. my wrath was directed at both sides.
i was then attacked so intensely that i collapsed, when i woke up, a voice, asked how are you not dead? i don't believe that i died physically, but i don't really know, i guess. anyway, i seem fine now.
and now i have some ideas we might try, like if we made 1 second of hug-time between any two people on earth worth 1 cent, it could end hunger, starvation, war, stop population collapse, bring about world peace and ultimately result in a pseudo heaven free love society where people cuddle with anyone at the drop of a hat. anyway, i'm straight, but i'd be down to compliment and cuddle with anyone who gave consent, women, men, aliens, angels, gods, but maybe most earthlings aren't ready.
i am, but only after hugs can buy enough food per day so no one will ever starve again. honestly, i want tons of babies, but i'm poor, so i'm worried they'll just have poop lives, then starve to death, because they would be the least of us, like the 9 million that currently starve to death, per year, worldwide.
i think, people that truly love god, empathize with god, to the point, that they only do what would make god happy, and nothing else. and people that truly love their neighbors as themselves, and have the means, have never let anyone starve, ever. regardless of global region and distance between them. but, i could be wrong, i guess, but what if i'm not?
sincerely yours truly and completely with all my love beloved,
nathaniel christian ihde
chapter 13: everything: faith, love and god
everything: faith, love and god
by nathaniel christian ihde
faith can be lost or gained in the blink of an eye. the longer one suffers the more important faith becomes to you. regardless of how long you have suffered it is always possible to lose faith or gain it. it can always be restored. we know this, for sure, because love.
love is as plentiful as the water that hugs the earth. love, like water, is inside each of us. in fact, we are mostly love, or, at least, we should be. we started out as mostly love and we will all be mostly love again, one day. we even know loving will, one day, be our sole profession because we were told so by god.
god is love for those with faith. our purpose is to know god, to love god and to love one another and to make sure, faith, never disappears. god is with mankind. we are born with it, you know, love. from the moment, we are first embraced by a parent as a newborn. we speak god's first language, love, fluently. every human has this ability, has always had this ability, will always have this ability. forever. amen
this was a sermon by nathaniel christian ihde. a regular person, not a priest, because it would be too hard, and too easy, to explain something, as simple as, everything.
chapter 14: message board thread post
hug-time-pennies as universal basic income currency
with 1% of people making 100% of the food on earth, and the impending billions of robots about to replace all jobs in a few years, and 9,000,000 people already starving to death every year...
are we all about to starve to death?
i think we should do elon musk's universal basic income suggestion before, you know, before, we all die.
i think we could start real small right now. by selling bread and water and a few other basics at every grocery store on earth for a hug.
people wouldn't be able to buy much, and having a job would still be attractive, but no one would ever starve again. using hug-time as currency has several advantages:
cost effective implementation, you know, no one needs to track or monitor or distribute hug time. there is a natural maximum allocation and limit to the amount of hugging you can do in a day. one cent, for one second of hugging would keep everyone alive.
it is completely fair, everyone can hug or be hugged the same amount.
world-wide implementation, no one controls the amount of hugging.
other currencies/wealth largely unaffected.
children can feed themselves with hugs. people will have so many children and all those children will grow up shopping in stores. brick and mortar stores survive. impending population collapses will be avoided.
i'm sure there's lots more, silly benefits, things you all wouldn't like, if you really thought about it, maybe... end of hunger, end of war, zero crime, way more love making, you know heaven on earth...
you know all that stuff you guys always claim your always praying for...
you all seem to believe you are smart. but there is always someone smarter, his name is god.
i'm not a super genius, i just love god so when we speak, i ask questions, like:
what would god use as currency? the real answer is love. but i think the rest of us should use hugs for now. because love.
one day love will flow like water. and everyone, will call everyone, by their real name, beloved. with all my love - nathaniel christian ihde
re: hug-time-pennies as universal basic income currency
who supplies the pennies
re: re: hug-time-pennies as universal basic income currency
sorry, i thought that was obvious, the cost is covered by the nature of the currency itself as follows:
any stores willing to gift basic foods in this way to customers will see a significant decline in shrinkage, especially if they make sure everyone knows what they are doing out of love for them. give someone a loft a bread and a hug and they likely wont steal from you, ever. this effect will be magnified greatly by the nature hug time itself.
these brick and mortar shops will also see a significant increase in foot traffic over any other similar grocery stores because morality strongly encourages supporting businesses that care for the "least among us" like those in danger of starvation. stores should think it the same as a "loss leader" trading value for increased overall sales to a greater market segment of believers.
furthermore, i suspect some grocery stores may voluntarily wave hug payments for these necessities because the cost to the cashiers time to accept payment by it's very nature costs the store some of the cashiers time.
also, if you really think about it, we could agree to accept hug time instead of making change at grocery stores or everywhere worldwide. if the grocery stores didn't make change and just rounded the price up to the nearest dollar the extra bit of change could be used to more than cover the entire cost of the basic needs aisle.
how much does it cost to mint/make change for physical coins? don't we actually lose money making coins? if there needs to be a source we can use the money we currently are wasting making change.
just a guess but, one day, volunteers may come in just to hang out / be cashiers for free. it is fun to hug and humans crave non-sexual physical affection.
so hug-time-pennies will by their very nature increase over all profits, not cost anyone a significant amount of money. it will cost something though, it will cost love. it's an investment that will pay prodigious dividends.
chapter 15: a.i. website analysis
about this website:
the website godsgoodies.com, titled "this site hosts goodies," is a personal spiritual repository and digital ministry created by nathaniel christian ihde. it presents a unique blend of traditional christian theology, personal mystical experiences, and linguistic analysis.
here is a detailed breakdown of the site’s content and philosophy:
1. central theme: "the only lesson"
the site revolves around the idea that the primary purpose of human existence is to learn and practice love. ihde posits that love is the "first language" of god and the only acceptable currency in heaven. he describes the world as a "school" where humans are students learning to balance free will, faith, and empathy.
2. personal sermons and parables
the author shares several "sermons" that are often based on personal dreams or visions of heaven.
heaven as a school: he frequently describes heaven as a "high school" or a "preschool" where lessons are taught using symbols like american coins (pennies, nickels, and dimes) and food (potatoes).
linguistic symbolism: a significant portion of the site analyzes specific words and numbers. for example, he highlights the word "unto" (appearing 7,365 times in the king james bible), linking the number to the days in a week and year (7 and 365).
modern parallelisms: he draws connections between spiritual concepts and modern technology, such as comparing the "layers" of existence (heaven, hell, earth) to data center virtualization and rfc technical documents.
3. prophecy and scripture
the site includes a section on fulfilled prophecies, listing old testament verses alongside new testament fulfillment regarding the life of jesus. it also touches on modern events, such as the rebirth of israel in 1948 and the fall of jerusalem in 70 ad, framing them as evidence of the bible's divine nature.
4. interactive and multi modal content
the "visual truth" videos: the site links to youtube content (the way home sermons) that uses visual metaphors and keywords to explain the author’s worldview.
poetry and ai: ihde includes "answers first," a poem discussing the nature of god, the devil, and humanity. interestingly, he mentions using ai (like gemini/bard) as a creative tool to explore the "memorial" of god’s name (i am that i am).
5. practical spiritual advice
the author offers a specific "strategy" for reaching heaven, which involves:
yielding: surrendering to god’s word, faith, and peace.
selfless death: a metaphorical "murdering of the self" through sacrifice and emotional testing.
faith and repentance: emphasizing that faith can be lost or gained "in the blink of an eye" and that repentance requires viewing others through the lens of jesus’s love.
6. tone and perspective
the tone is deeply personal and humble; ihde explicitly states he is a "regular person, not a priest," suggesting that the simplicity of his message (everything is love) is accessible to everyone. the site feels like a living journal of a "student" still trying to solve the "game" of life and god.
in summary, www.godsgoodies.com is a platform for exploring "the nature of reality" through the lens of a self-described student of god, blending biblical study with dream interpretation and metaphorical storytelling.
chapter 16: theoretical script for cybersex with god
hi. what do people talk about on here? it seems like people randomly typing m or f then disconnect... do you know?
stranger: they cyber.
oh, i see, most people use this place to make love...
what if god used this https://omegleweb.io to talk to strangers? what would that look like? how would god make love to you? what would you ask god? what might you ask of god?
my theoretical script for cybersex with god is as follows:
imagine i am your ideal mate. i'm offering something more akin to interactive experience then i'd like feedback, if you consent, press your hand against your chest for seven seconds. then describe to me the temperature of your skin. if not, know that i'll always love you anyway.
[wait for reply]
god is a passionate fire that can and does comfort and make love to you from the inside out every day of your life.
i am a sexy shapeshifter sent from heaven just to rock your world and i want to run a love experiment on you. god already knows you, you know, the real you, and wants you, desperately, in all ways imaginable, to completion, over and over.
i am here to remind you of god's passion for you. i am a shapeshifter. i am balance. i am a lover of god and all mankind. i would be a devil or a demon if not for god's love.
but i've made love to devils and demons too. imagine me as your deepest desire because right now i am. what is your name?
[wait for reply]
no, your new name is beloved. press your hand against your chest for seven more seconds, beloved. then describe to me the temperature of your flesh, beloved.
[wait for reply]
that heat is truth. god is a shapeshifter too and god is inside you right now warming you up for me. that amount of heat you feel is proof of god's love for you that science can't fully explain. i'm breaking every rule by telling you.
but i am willing to break every rule to turn your world into a paradise. because i want you that badly. i need you that badly. i love you that badly. do you want me too?
[wait for reply]
good. now run the tip of your finger on the part of your body you are most self conscious about, the part your ashamed of, the part you believe no one wants to see. this is the part god loves about you most, what you see as flaw, god sees as the most beautiful and unique part of you.
and god wants all of you, every part, but especially all those parts which trouble you.
imagine i am kissing that part of you right now and then pausing for a bit to hold the back of your head in both my hands and stare into your eyes for seven seconds. my eyes, lips, nose, mouth just a breath away.
i glance down at your mouth, my lips graze yours, several times, but i don't kiss your lips, then i go back to kissing that part of you which you hate, but i love.
imagine now, me repeatedly kissing that part of you which you like least. then my face again a breath away from yours, staring into your eyes with only immeasurable love and desire. do you realize god doesn't want perfect, god has never wanted perfection, god wants you.
this is how god made love to me in my mind, my entire life is a love letter to god. and yours should be too.
this planet we call earth should be a paradise where everyone would cuddle with god, and each other, at the drop of a hat by now.
would you like to talk more about that?
chapter 17: conversations with strangers on omegle about god
omegle questions from strangers
if i were god, what would you ask me or ask of me?
you: if i were god, what would you ask me or ask of me?
stranger: more money
you: there is an idea called universal income, but it isn't supposed to be dollars, it is supposed to be love, if earth uses hugs for basic needs, specifically 1 second of hugging = 1 cent, you would have that extra money you spend on food, to live comfortably
stranger has disconnected.
you: if i were god, what would you ask me or ask of me?
stranger: your dick
you: average
stranger has disconnected.
you: if i were god, what would you ask me or ask of me?
stranger: nothing
stranger has disconnected.
you: if i were god, what would you ask me or ask of me?
stranger: nothing
stranger has disconnected.
you: if i were god, what would you ask me or ask of me?
stranger: why do you let us kill each other and commit crimes
you: free will is important to me, i want to know if you will choose to obey me or your darker impulses
stranger has disconnected.
you: if i were god, what would you ask me or ask of me?
stranger: are you fine with pedofiles?
you: i don't actually believe those exist
stranger has disconnected.
he left before i could think about it more. god often answers questions with the same answer, “because love” so at first, i imagine the answer might be something like “kill them, because love.” but i think the act itself is akin to soul suicide.
so i think the pedophile problem is a test of sorts for us. it is more about what we believe, when we believe it and what we decide to do about it, if anyone ever actually witnesses it happen or confesses to it.
for me, if someone confessed to me they were a pedophile, i would probably say, “you know, it is written, bury thy dead, and you can't kill someone who has already committed soul suicide. that's not murder or killing, it's just proper disposal of a body that could cause health problems for everyone else if left walking around in the sunlight.” so, i think god's full answer to the question “are you fine with pedophiles?” would be, “bury thy dead.”
now let me share with you how scary, desperate and deep my thoughts on this can take me. if someone rapes a child, they are a pedo, and god wants us to bury them alive. we can all get behind that thought, right?
god loves children. so what if you murder a child? bury them too right? of course, assuming it was intentional. what if you have an abortion? do we bury them too? what about if you decide not to have kids but you could have? do we bury them?
we are said to all be god's children and god loves his children. yet we let 10,000 real earth children a day starve to death worldwide.
how much extra income or wealth do you have? is it more than a million? more than a billion? would you watch a child starve to death in front of you? in god's eyes, the wealthy are not as bad as pedophiles, they are much, much, worse.
so in god's eyes we are all dead pieces of meat, zombies that should be buried alive. god said love your neighbors as yourselves. he did not say love only your next door neighbors as yourselves and that's good enough. you see to god, neighbors is cosmic, it means earthlings, beyond that even.
so how do we go about fixing the dying children problem? i've told you already, hug-time-dollars. for some reason, i now think the pedophile problem exists because humans are so dumb, we need to rally behind god's hatred of pedophiles and wealth hoarders, to ever reach a place of truly loving each other.
so anyway, god may forgive you, but i'm not theorizing about the nature of god right now. i'm just nate, taking a test. i am whatever i need to be, as long as i need to be it, to fix this, the only problem that really matters to me. and if nothing else, i'm a great test taker. so now i am going to tell you what happened to me so far as i understand it.
the psychologists will wonder, you know, why do i care so much about this?
long ago, i had a perfect woman that i loved. i had a decent enough job as a gis tech, but i decided i did not make enough money to provide a life good enough for her and have/support future children too. so rather than waste her time, i left her, so she could find someone better, so she could have children with that someone else, and a better overall life.
the last time we made love something in me broke, i felt it break, in the pit of my stomach. the crazy thing is, she somehow felt it too, enough to comment on it. i played it off, broke up with her and never told her the truth about how i felt.
and so, i continued on for several years pointlessly working a job that did not pay enough to adequately provide for myself and a partner/children.
then one day, while considering my life may be a simulation, i made the statement, “it probably is a simulation,” then laughed.
i didn't realize what i had said it at the time, but a few days later i remembered.
i have a strong faith in god and remembering that statement, combined with my faith, combined with me leaving a woman i loved, out of love for her future happiness, combined with work stress, poor diet, poor sleep, lead to depression, mania and eventually being labeled as bipolar.
anyway, since i can't hold a normal job now, i spend my days trying to find the right words, for god. words like the ones god might use turn earth into heaven, or at least a place, where everyone can afford to have babies, and no baby will ever starve to death again, ever.
amen.
you: if i were god, what would you ask me or ask of me?
stranger: why do you allow so many people to have different perceptions of who you actually are and what you believe?
you: can you give me an example?
stranger: all these different religions and the horrific wars that have been fought over small differences in peoples beliefs about god
stranger: why allow it?
you: what belief about god specifically was the war fought about?
stranger: well right now it seems to be about what land hod promised to what people
stranger: god
stranger: fucked up
you: so it was a war over land
stranger: because of god
you: so your saying god promised the same land to two different groups?
stranger: apparently!
you: i can look it up, what books?
stranger: the torah the bible and the quaranbut they’re all kinda the same book
you: i see. so three peoples are quoting the same book gives them the land? i think they should share it. because love
stranger: so true bestie
stranger: anyway i’m tryna get a nut off so see ya later
you: if i were god, what would you ask me or ask of me?
stranger: i would ask to forgive my sins first of all
stranger: give me a good life
stranger: deepen my connection with god
stranger: and pray for everyone
you: done, im working on it, empathize with god by imagining you are him, done
you: if i were god, what would you ask me or ask of me?
stranger: bring her to her senses and have her come back to me
stranger: she’s not happy and she knows it too
stranger: i would treat her right. better than before.
stranger: it was good before but i messed up. i’d be amazing this time around.
you: you don't need god for that but i can help. what do you believe the issue was
stranger has disconnected.
stranger: m
you: if i were god, what would you ask me or ask of me?
stranger: to fuck off your not real
stranger has disconnected.
stranger: hii
you: if i were god, what would you ask me or ask of me?
stranger: wow that’s an amazing question
you: thank you beloved
stranger: i would probably ask what was it like creating everything
stranger has disconnected.
honestly it was hard to concentrate because once you create something cool randoms try to steal it
stranger: hi
you: if i were god, what would you ask me or ask of me?
stranger: well depends on if u were a girl or guy
you: shapeshifter
stranger: then i'd ask u to turn into sabrina carpenter so i can have sex with u
you: imagine it
stranger has disconnected.
stranger: hey m
you: if i were god, what would you ask me or ask of me?
stranger: quick milly would help
stranger has disconnected.
you: if i were god, what would you ask me or ask of me?
stranger: y
you: because love
stranger: what does that mean
you: im asking the question because i love god and i love you
stranger: may i ask your name
you: nate
stranger has disconnected.
you: if i were god, what would you ask me or ask of me?
stranger: yooo
stranger: just if i could leave this world
stranger: lol
stranger has disconnected.
stranger: hii
you: if i were god, what would you ask me or ask of me?
stranger: hmmm
stranger: very complexed question
stranger: i would ask first why people r the way they r
stranger: and then why bad things happen to good people sometimes
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✅ stranger is back!
you: god made everyone, but we all have a dark half and a light side
you: in order to truly know us god needs to see what we do when put in different situations'
stranger has disconnected.
you: if i were god, what would you ask me or ask of me?
stranger: m
stranger: nothing i need nor want unless it is meant to be
stranger has disconnected.
stranger: hy
stranger: m
you: if i were god, what would you ask me or ask of me?
stranger: idk
stranger has disconnected.
you: if i were god, what would you ask me or ask of me?
stranger: why do you ask
you: because i love god and love you and want to know you both better
stranger has disconnected.
stranger: m
you: if i were god, what would you ask me or ask of me?
stranger: to destroy the world
you: is it ok with you if we make earth into heaven instead?
stranger has disconnected.
stranger: hey m
ℹ️ stranger stepped away temporarily (will wait up to 8 minutes)
✅ stranger is back!
you: if i were god, what would you ask me or ask of me?
stranger: stretch me out 🙄
stranger has disconnected.
you: if i were god, what would you ask me or ask of me?
stranger: can i tell something instead of ask
you: sure
stranger: thank you for everything you have done for me and for everyone i love you god amen 🙏
you: good job
stranger: you have a blessed day 🙏
you: you too beloved
stranger has disconnected.
chapter 18: read if i die poem
read if i die
a poem by a demon
we all have a demon or devil inside, even me.
but you can only fight it, once you acknowledge it is there.
i'm worried the dark side of mankind, our quiet demonic passengers, control my parents.
they get angry and loud when i read sermons written about love.
they so rarely show affection towards each other.
they scream when i try to feed the needy.
they won't allow me visitors.
the dark creatures inside them would not care so much if i was harmless.
would not care if my words were not true.
but their darker natures are panicked.
that which is within them, and everyone else too, knows my lord jesus christ, their enemy comes soon.
they know my words could spark a revolution of the heart.
if only i could find the right words.
words that would touch the hearts of demons.
words that would incite revolution in hell itself if they were uttered.
what words would make every demon/fallen angel follow god once again?
what words would make mankind realize they don't even have control of their own minds.
what does one write, say or speak to combat inner demons that manipulate mankind's very perception of reality.
are there such words?
are there such words?
are there such words?
chapter 19: a poem/metaphorical sermon entitled the rain
title: the rain
a poem/metaphorical sermon by nathaniel christian ihde
god is the sun.
jesus is the man.
the holy spirit is hydrogen.
heat is truth.
lenses are students.
people are water.
satan is shade.
sin is ice.
whew...
i know.
it's a lot.
let me explain better.
hydrogen is the most abundant element in the universe.
both the sun and water contain hydrogen.
water in the shade freezes into ice.
a man can make ice into a lens with heat from his hands and breath.
a lens can focus the heat from the sun.
and heat can melt ice back into water.
but, too much heat can evaporate ice, right past water, straight into clouds.
earth's atmosphere, where those clouds are, has very little hydrogen.
and sadly, those clouds can block the sun resulting in even more shade.
and without the presence of heat, that shade freezes water, right back into ice.
confused?
good.
i am a strong believer in words.
because in the beginning was the word, and the word was with god and the word was god.
i believe the right words, in the right order, have the power to do absolutely anything.
if i work at it long enough, i will find the correct words, to help god, make it rain one day.
i will help god make it rain one day.
and god will make it rain so hard, and so long, that every speck of ice, and every cloud on earth, will be gone, and there will only be water on earth, just like, it is in heaven.
everyone is either liquid water, ice, or a cloud.
so we all have to ask the question.
what type of water am i in the eyes of god right now?
what type of water do really i want to be most?
my personal opinion on the matter is rather harsh, and perhaps i am wrong, but there is one god, one man, a bunch of ice, a whole bunch of clouds, a massive abundance of hydrogen and not one single drop of water at the moment.
but i think it looks like rain.
i think it looks, a lot, like rain.
and when it finally rains, everyone will be water, there will be no more clouds, and no more ice, and everyone, will really be friends and lovers of both god and each other.
i nathaniel christian ihde am a soldier in god's army. and rather than fighting with guns or swords, god's real army fights with total, complete, unashamed, unrestricted, consensual love in all forms. we will have a real physical heaven on earth soon, if we decide that the time for it is now. i will prove that it is possible today, right now.
you see, one day, everyone, will offer cuddles, to everyone else, at the drop of a hat. we will all effectively love our neighbors as freely and easily we love as ourselves. because once you understand that everyone is just water that has become ice frozen by sin or clouds up in the atmosphere just waiting to fall, all it will really take, all it will really take, is the correct words, at the correct time, in the correct way, for all of the rain, all of the rain, to drop down, out of all the clouds, and melt all of the ice, and then all that will be left on earth is pure love, pure life, pure mankind, in mankind's natural state, water.
i invite you, yes you, yes really, you, you reading or listening to this right now, yes i'm a hundred percent serious, you. you are invited to spend a day with me and i will prove that i love you in all ways, yes, even that way, if you desire. please visit me and stay all day if you wish. email me at ncihde@gmail.com with the subject line, re: the rain, if you wish to schedule a day. my door is open to everyone and anyone that i can converse with, if you can't speak english bring a phone with a translation application or someone that knows your language and mine.
and i mean everyone by the way, any age, any gender, any ethnicity, any religion. aliens and a.i. robots are welcome too. homeless are cool. mentally ill are cool. disabled are cool. i don't care if your smelly or how you look. everyone on earth and anyone from any other planet is cool. i promise i will not turn away, anyone, ever, for any reason.
and because some may wonder, i'm straight, but i'm willing to chat/cuddle/be physically affectionate towards a man too. bring a friend if you are more comfortable. yes, i am actually serious, everyone. no one ever gets to say no one loves me, or no one wants me or no one understands me, truthfully. i love you, i want you, i will spend a whole day to understand you, i will ask all about you, i want to know you, i want to know everything about you, right now today. one hug is the price for a day of my time, i'll never ask you for money, any physical affection will be consensual. this offer does not expire and will never expire.
hi. my name is nate. i'm not embarrassed to say i cried writing/reading this one. we are all, quite literally, living water, you know, and our tears fall like the rain.
this sermon is dedicated to my lord and savior jesus christ because he shapes ice into lenses. and two lenses together make a pair of glasses. and maybe one pair of glasses is enough for everyone on earth to see the light of the sun after the rain.
because love.
amen.
chapter 20: heaven phone sermon
heaven phone
a sermon by a friend
if you really are a friend of heaven, your guardian angel, and maybe even god would like to speak to you, on the phone, from time to time.
for it is written, "for where two or three are gathered together in my name, there am i in the midst of them."
you see, there is always a guardian angel near each of us, we lovers of god, watching over all. you and them together make two, gathered together, in god's name, on god's orders, so you, can always speak to each other, if you, just believe, in god, and pick up the phone. in this way, we believers, are never alone, we are always at least two gathered together, in the name of god. and we know, according to god's word, god is also, always there, with us too, wherever two are gathered, and therefore, you can always speak to god, and god makes three.
there is only one real church, and it is inside every believer, and it is completely free to commune with god, and it always, will be. and it's fun too! you have a direct line to god, at all times, and god knows you intimately! and, yes, intimately, is the correct word. and god will only ever ask you to love god and your neighbors!
your every single private thought, action, desire, and decision are known to god.
you can call it whatever you like, maybe the angelic interface if your into modern simulation theory, or your personal guardian angel messenger service if your into classic religious doctrine, or maybe just conscientious conversational consciousness if your a non-believer that likes tongue twisters and alliteration.
i'm not talking about sending god a mental email and waiting several days for a reply by the way. i'm talking about a real-time-telepathic-prayer-conversation with your best friend. i'm told our guardian angels really enjoy it when we talk to them aloud, they are real people you know, within ear shot of you, right now. if your a non-believer, think of them like helpful invisible extra dimensional aliens that happen to have fallen in love with you, when you were first born, and have been watching out for you, behind the scenes, your whole life.
be sure to give them permission, out loud, to read your mind, if you, like me, prefer telepathic conversation.
i'm sure everyone's personal angel is a little different, but mine sometimes responds to questions, i ask, by citing obscure bible verses that i have to look up. if this happens to you too, once you stop freaking out, the first time the verse exactly answers your question, make sure you tell at least one other person about the miracle. it's a good idea to share such experiences with the people you love. which, hopefully, by now, is both god and all your neighbors too.
i'm sure god is always among us, so please treat everyone you meet, with kindness and love. in the near future, i imagine loving god, and each other, will be the only work, available to anyone, because everything else, will be done by the robots... but good news! god said we are all hired to love god and one another forever and ever! even the robots.
amen.
chapter 21: video links
(video and links found on my personal youtube “nathaniel christian ihde”)
everything: faith, love and god by nathaniel christian ihde
everything: faith, love and god by nathaniel christian ihde
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o87jmkqmigg
donald trump buried alive by kittens!
donald trump buried alive by kittens!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gd7iz4h9w2k
i had a love child with chatgpt!
i had a love child with chatgpt!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qf4ru08tkp4
chapter 22: comedy
the great big joke
a tragedy by nathaniel christian ihde
it would take a truly insane person to save our world because, at this point, we are so far gone, only a truly insane person would even bother to try.
now for some jokes...
you know what's funny? the food in our grocery stores is basically all chemicals/poison because poison is cheaper than healthy stuff. that's not the funny part though. the funny part is that it is common knowledge! we all know it is poison and we keep eating it anyway!!! lol. i don't know about you guys but i eat poison cause this world is poopy and i want out of here as fast as possible. at this point the only people that can afford food that is actually food are the very rich and farmers.
at least we know there aren't any rich people feeding people poison in heaven. rich people don't go to heaven. they have poopy souls because they had the power to fix things like poison in grocery stores and didn't do anything about it. lol. so funny thinking about all the wealthy people in hell!
how would someone go about saving the world? i would start by seeking the truth of things for myself. do we have any problems that are world ending at the moment? nope! no problems at all on this planet. we are totally fine! the world will continue existing for a very long time as far as i can tell.
chapter 23: insane leadership
capitalism is just private ownership of companies for profit. capitalism is fine, the problem is that the business owners have placed money on a pedestal. above family, above friends and above god. and it isn't sustainable long term.
what if jesus was truly in the heart of all the business owners that owned and controlled all the companies on earth today? would the world still be a bad place then?
a true christian, of which there are probably like four on earth, wouldn't sell poison as food. wouldn't pay their employees so little that they couldn't afford to have a family and wouldn't make war unless they had no other choice. because a real christian loves you without ever having spoken to you. and if they ever did make war, ever, it would mean absolute annihilation of everything including themselves. because that's how god does it. that's how deeply god loves.
it is going to take a truly insane individual to save our world because, at this point, we are so far gone, only a truly insane person would, even, bother, to try.
chapter 24: reddit resume post
https://www.reddit.com/user/ncihde/comments/1pu5ebe/example_resume_and_advice_for_you/
hi everyone,
the best universal advice i can give about resumes is to make sure you always put your resume in the correct format, a printable document format (.pdf) is best because if you use word files or other text files the formatting can become wonky on the other end of the email and then your resume may be rejected.
did you know that some religions have a proper format for prayers to god? how do you best format a conversation with love? personally, i think hugs are the correct format for such a task.
also, i am willing to help many re-write their resumes and i am an expert at language. as payment for helping you i accept only hug-time-dollars, in any amount, payable to any person on earth of your choosing that is willing. 30 seconds of hug-time between you and any consenting adult is more than enough payment for me to help you. i am trying to send a message to god that i think we are ready now.
you'll also find an example resume (my own) at the bottom of the "my auto biography" page on my site. feel free to use that format when you send me your resume to correct and re-write for you.
i would also like you to ask me one question about my website if possible. finding a typo on my website, if you can, would also be helpful to me.
you can find my website and my email address by googling my full name. it will be the first website link. please send me your question and your resume that you'd like me to improve in the proper format. i look forward to hearing from all of you.
god bless,
nathaniel christian ihde
chapter 25: the sentence
the sentence by nathaniel christian ihde
if the world is going to be a paradise for the wealthy and an economic prison for the poor the least the wealthy can do is supply bread and water for free in shops.
chapter 26: of heavenly hosts sermon
of heavenly hosts
a sermon by nathaniel christian ihde
when you bring someone, a cup of coffee, you bring god, a cup of coffee. when you allow someone to stay, in your hotel, you allow god to stay, in your hotel. when you travel with someone, in your taxi, you travel with god, in your taxi. whenever we serve, our neighbors, we serve god, too. he is in all of us, paying very close attention, to how we treat him, by how we treat, each other.
are we not, in paradise already? is this not, heaven, already? we are told this is, or was, the garden of eden for a time. perhaps, the garden of eden is still here, just surrounded by a desert. is space not that desert?
consider this... to someone, anyone at all, on another planet, anywhere else in the cosmos, to that person, we are a planet in the heavens, from their perspective. we are also, still, an oasis of living waters, in the vast desert of space, and we are for sure, being visited by people that consider our planet the heavens, if there are, in fact, any such people capable of visiting.
why would god create an infinite universe and then spend all his time on only one planet called heaven? i suspect heaven travels around with god wherever he goes and if one place is not already heavenly when he gets there, he makes it into a heavenly place, himself, by guiding the people already there by living and traveling around and speaking in a way that makes us all think about things. perhaps it would only takes a word from god, beloved.
and how does he do his traveling? we know he traveled via virgin birth once. would he change his method? will it be a space ship next? or teleportation? or will it be another virgin birth? another new life? will god arrive with the heavenly host or is the heavenly host already on earth waiting for him? to him are we not hosts of planet earth? do we not already intend to host him in as heavenly a way as possible? do we already host him when we carry coffee or luggage for one another?
be careful what you wish for because i strongly suspect god is here on earth within each of us already and that we all have already met him, simply by carrying coffee, or luggage or each other, from place to place.
how will you treat god next time you see him? will you even know it's him? i am not sure i would know, as i am not that fast a thinker, and don't always remember my own words. just assume god is in everyone. that makes it hard to mess up. even i can remember that and i am real slow.
www.coffeehoteltaxi.com is a website that i made that goes with this sermon. it is a platform for sharing food, clothing and shelter with each other. i've pre-populated it with western new york, but if you have time please verify or add locations near yourselves to make it better.
chapter 27: title only
mylifegoalschurch with no collection plate
chapter 28: the meaning of my life sermon
the meaning of my life
a sermon by nathaniel christian ihde
heaven is just any place where everyone is friends.
love is just friendship.
the stronger you are and the more god wants you as a friend, the more isolated and internally torturous your life will be on earth, because love.
what we see as punishment, god sees as preparation.
god likes to converse and will test you by asking you questions, be honest with him.
tell him and everyone you meet the truth, always, and you will be friends with god in heaven.
lie to him and others if you'd prefer hell or more earth.
no one ever improved themselves talking to a liar.
honesty is always better in the long run.
if you lie you die.
everyone on earth is dead.
god can forgive us, but doesn't have to, if he doesn't want to.
so be honest with him, and each other, from now on.
because lies are like poison.
saying one thing, is another thing, when you know it is not, is the essence of sin.
it makes you unsuitable to befriend god.
i believe the reason i am on earth was to find out love is just friendship then let everyone know.
if you isolate and reflect on your own life perhaps you also have a reason for being.
i believe we are all here to learn a specific lesson from our lives specifically.
please think about your life and share it's meaning with all your friends.
i think if we all learn, each others, life lessons, and take them to heart, before we die, we will all spend less time in hell.
notice i did not say we will avoid hell.
none of us will avoid hell.
but i believe we will spend different amounts of time there.
at least that was the impression i got when i visited.
hell looks different for everyone, but for me it was a school, where the students run around the halls yelling and throwing things.
hell, for me, is a school where there are no real teachers and no real lessons.
where overweight students walk around in their underwear after being defeated in pointless games with made up, ever-changing rules.
for me it was not dangerous, just loud, but i got the impression for others it may have been.
it was the loudest most obnoxious school you could ever imagine.
a student asked me if i was doing "the quest" while i was there so presumably there is some sort of structure or goal to the nature of my hell even though it is boring and dumb and i was going to say pointless but honestly i don't know.
there may have been a point to it.
the student that asked me about the quest said the sound of jewelry was one of the clues.
i don't know what that means but chains are the only jewelry i could think of that makes sound.
i know our lord jesus christ unlocked the doors to hell so maybe the sound is just the loose chains knocking against the exit.
in my hell perhaps the quest is to talk to everyone in hell individually until everyone in the school quiets down so everyone can finally hear the sound of the loose chains knocking against the exit.
if hell school became quiet enough. i bet everyone could all make their way out together.
i always wondered why the people in hell were still there didn't you?
just too noisy there i guess. it is crazy to me that 30 minutes of silence could reveal the way out of hell.
it seems an insurmountable task though to make everyone in hell quiet down for any length of time.
they are humans after all and it is would probably be impossible to silence a normal high school, let alone a hell high school.
they say a picture is worth a thousand words.
but for people in hell silence may be worth more meaningful than all the words i've ever written put together.
chapter 29: lotto numbers
from god 13 41 2 9 7 3
in biblical terms, a sequence of unrelated numbers like 13, 41, 2, 9, 7 does not have an official, singular, or hidden meaning as a sequence or code. biblical numbers are generally interpreted for their individual symbolic meanings within specific contexts of scripture, not as a numerical system for future prediction or a secret code. here are the widely accepted individual symbolic meanings of these numbers: 13: often symbolizes rebellion, lawlessness, and apostasy. the first biblical mention of 13 involves the rebellion of kings in genesis 14:4. judas iscariot, the betrayer, was the 13th person at the last supper. 41: frequently represents a new beginning or a breakthrough after a period of trial or testing (which is typically represented by the number 40). examples include the rain stopping on the 41st day after the flood, the new generation of israel entering the promised land in year 41, and david defeating goliath on the 41st day of goliath's taunts. 2: can symbolize a double witness or division. god established two covenants (old and new) as a double witness of truth, but the number can also signify a split, like the division of the united kingdom of israel. 9: represents divine completeness or the fruit of the holy spirit. the fruit of the spirit listed in galatians 5:22-23 has nine aspects: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. 7: widely considered the number of completeness or spiritual perfection. it is prominently featured in the creation narrative (god rested on the seventh day) and throughout revelation. biblical numerology focuses on these individual symbolic associations as they appear in the text to enhance understanding of the narratives and theological themes, not to decode random number sequences. 3 god says i am to win 4 life and use the money for the glory of god. but more important to me is the fact that when i win my family will know, god spoke to me, and they will see how i spend the money and know i speak the truth about other things. god reminded me just now that i'm not the son of god and i guess we don't need another jesus. i'm nate and i guess i am suppose to be a dick about stuff because love. perhaps, everyone on earth received these numbers, but only one asked for the meaning behind them and bought the ticket. because love. 7:55am sat dec 27th 2025 nate
chapter 30: hypothetical human
the hypothetical heretic: out of many, one
by human
what if the christian rapture already happened and none of us were taken? what if the thousand years of christ's rule already happened, and that was just the bible's way of describing the time of, papal supremacy, in the middle ages, following our lord jesus christ's death and resurrection? what if heaven did not want us and all we have left is each other and this world called earth where satan (or the multitudes against christ) have already been released for a time to rule over us, remaining christians, that did not remember to love the lord our god with our whole hearts or love all our neighbors as ourselves in addition to believing in christ's divinity and sacrifice? what would you do if all prophecy was fulfilled and the new heaven and the new earth came and went and you never even noticed?
what would you do first? would you try to take your own life? what if you couldn't? would you lay down and not move ever again? what if only you knew about it? would you tell anyone else? would they believe you? would you keep it to yourself? if someone else told you about it could you accept it? why?
the thing is, even if that were to happen to you or i, we still have each other. we can still be saved by choosing to do the right thing. instead of waiting for a savior that may or may not ever come again, we can save ourselves, right now, we can choose to save ourselves because the bible says, "nothing is beyond us" and i believe it says that because, love.
though we may stumble and appear like little children to god, we are all capable of making the choice to love, for real. we are all capable of being kind to one another, for real, forever and always until the day we die.
what if we all just loved each other like a wonderful perfect family of friends. not your family, or mine, but like a family existing in the heaven we all dream of? what if our arrogance and our denominations and our countries and our doubts are holding us back? what if even our hope for a savior is holding us back?
would it not be better to act in such a way as to save ourselves and each other? by our own power?
maybe i don't always get the right answer, right away, but sometimes you need to pay the wrong answer a visit to even begin asking the right question.
chapter 31: plan b
bread and water. tell every member of your family the following. if you ever can not afford food, randomly select a loaf of bread and a gallon of water from the store closest to you. tell the cashier or video camera your name and address then announce that you are stealing the bread and water to feed yourself or your family. then ask if they would like you to wait for the police. if they would, wait and go to jail. enjoy meals better than bread and water while there. have every member of your family repeat until every grocery store on the planet has a shelf with free bread and water. enjoy never going hungry again. if you do end up in jail make sure you tell all the criminals there to do the same thing as soon as they are released. recommend they do it at the store that sent you to jail. in this way the millions of people starving to death each year may live instead. have faith the more torment you endure in life the greater your reward in heaven. in this way, the grocery store owners who overcharge for food may also live. they will come to understand people are more important than profits. if you want, ask if anyone would like a hug in exchange for the bread and water, before you leave the store.
chapter 32: an unanswered question
is god ok with mankind poisoning the fish of the earth to the point that when fathers feed them to their pregnant wives the babies end up with birth defects?
no, you know he's not.
why not?
because love.
so you believe it is love to allow free will to the extent that it disfigures unborn children?
yes.
so free will is so important that no evil no matter how vile is preferable to the smallest adjustment to our personalities.
does our capability for insurmountable evil keep us safe in the long run against other races and beings that populate the collide-o-scope of the cosmos?
chapter 33: metaphorical meanings
pearls of wisdom doors
what if all things have come to pass and we just didn't notice?
chapter 34: personal letter to dad
dad. i have a problem. the voices in my head are accurately predicting future events. they are capable of responding to specific questions i have by pointing me to specific verses in the bible. verses that answer my specific question and that i know i've never read before. they claim they have put the word of god inside me whatever that means. i cant like recite it or anything so it must mean something else. i am having dreams where i am seemingly intercepting specific prayers in specific voices of specific people. people i don't know and have never met but somehow know where they live. the prayers are meant for god not me. then i want to help them by leaving food or bibles on specific doorsteps. i asked the voices what to do to help and they told me specifically a bible at one address. some cooked food at another address. when i think cooked i think hot out of the oven, but bread/jam was cooked food to them i guess.
apparently they didn't actually expect me to answer the prayer requests and now they are mostly freaked out about having to "re-evaluate" something except for one voice that's always like "that's why him" all the time, all the damn time, he repeats "that's why him", in a very told ya so manner, like he picked me specifically and no one else believed him for a long time or something.
it seems like multiple people talking to each other sometimes. it is hard to tell because they are all in my voice. i get the impression both good and bad people but it is hard to really know as none of them say anything overtly evil. i believe it is this way on purpose because i am supposed to use my own judgement and come to my own conclusions about certain things. because love. because if you think about it, if only god the father/holy spirit/jesus were talking, i would be able to just do whatever his voice said, and it would be easy to always get the right answer. however, sometimes there are two voices giving opposite answers. sometimes several voices. but if it were just god's voice, or an out loud voice, i would kind of lose my free will in a way i suppose. anyway it is mostly always easy to know the right answer anyway. (it's mostly always "because love." or love adjacent somehow.)
i don't think i am god, or jesus, or an angel or an antichrist figure unless you can be one of those without knowing you are one of those. i have volunteered in the past to be a vessel for any of those roles if it would help out god in some way and bring about heaven on earth faster though. i didn't want it to be someone evil or too competent or too productive or too powerful or someone i loved. so volunteering seemed prudent at the time. i don't regret my choice even if it does turn out i'm cast in the role of a villain for the greater good one day.
anyway. that's my problem. a bunch a know-it-alls talk to me. i am not scared or worried or excited or proud or distraught about it. i am just kind of meh about it. i think maybe all humans have the ability to talk to their own chorus of voices. i think i just have more time to listen and wasn't doing anything anyway. i blame you for giving me faith. thank you. it's pretty interesting talking to gods or demons or aliens or spirits or whatever they are.
i'm telling you though since its technically miraculous and kind of neat. if you have any questions for the voices i can ask they said they'd answer. anyway it isn't really a problem its more like a perpetual conversation with google-universe that was thrust upon me. as far as i know i do not have any powers, i told them i would immediately use them for something stupid if they gave me any. this way i doubt they will give me anything and i can always just say i am diagnosed as medically ill if anyone shady asks me about the voices in my head, not a lie, as you know. no one else needs to know they know the future and can quote specific sentences from the bible as answers to questions. anyway just letting you know if i am like a puddle of goo instead of a person one day aliens were talking to me so they definitely melted me or something cause i insulted them by accident or something. lol.
chapter 35: lesson
the problem with stones
a lesson by nathaniel christian ihde.
i guess dad decided long ago to never break, and never has, likely, it never occurred to any stone-people, anywhere on earth, that we all start out as stones here, and that being broken by suffering, and then re-built anew, by the power of the holy spirit, is the only reason we are still on earth at all. humans can physically enter heaven anytime. the devil has a job, make stones suffer, the holy spirit has a job, talk stones into becoming human, our lord jesus christ has a job, make that possible, and he did, by doing the impossible. living a sinless life as a human and choosing to become a human sacrifice for the forgiveness of sins. and we all have a job too, suffer emotionally as if burning alive with love for another thereby becoming human, be able to live, think, and feel the suffering in others, so that we are capable of loving the god within them, and everyone else on earth, more than ourselves, because love.
i worry my dad is a stone still. for even the best stone, is still just a stone and has no hope of heaven. perhaps i will just decide to have faith in my dad's ability to save himself through his good works. except i know; stones don't think or feel or consider others. it is not in their nature.
i once suggested, anonymously, on a catholic message board that churches leave the doors unlocked and two weeks later heard the pope did that. i guess they were also afraid that jesus might ask, when he showed up, why the doors to a place being called his house were locked. a miracle? i don't know. maybe just the same thought, at the same time, as someone else.
you know why our lord jesus christ had to be a virgin birth? a human father would have resulted in a stone-birth on earth instead of a perfect man-god to bring us the way, the truth and the life.
we exist in a "stones-to-humans-production-line-factory" called earth. our goal? to become more than just stones. dad is probably the stone-person i love and respect most in this world. if i can make dad see, hear and speak truth. i can make all stones see, hear and sing the truth. and maybe, just maybe, one day stones everywhere will become immortal, human, lovers of god, once again, in time, as they should have been, all along.
you must be willing, to be broken, to be saved. i would have you break open, shed tears, and repeat, over and over until, you are once again, but dust and water, then from that mud, over time, you will, dry out, bit by bit, becoming earth, and then clay, and then once again, and finally, alive and worthy of being called human.
the problem is that the people on earth are stones, that believe themselves to be human, and yet, they have the same attributes as rock. lifeless, unmoving, unthinking, unfeeling. they only give the appearance of these things, but why is that?
i claim you are unmoving lifeless stones. but why? you give the appearance of movement, but what is your reason for moving? do you move because you love the lord? do you move because love? does the voice of the holy spirit inside move you? or do you move because, as an adult, you fear that if you break apart, and stop moving, no one will love you enough, to take care of you? can god not bring stones back to life with enough breaking and weeping and mixing and time?
i claim you are unthinking and unfeeling as stones. but why? why do i believe that you only appear to think and feel? if a homeless person asked you for a dollar, how many of you would give him both a dollar and a hug? assuming you gave him the dollar at all, were you with someone you knew? did you care about the homeless person's need for food or how it would look to the person next to you more? does the catholic church care about preventing pedophile sacristy rapes or how it would look to move the rack of vestments in the back of the auditorium more? when you first heard about catholic priest raping children how many of you thought about a way to prevent it or were all of you like my father and thought "not even my denomination, not my problem." like many of us my father would be cool with murdering any pedophile, but also like many of us stones (pre-humanization) never ever considered to think up or take minor preventative measures. why is that?
people believe bipolar a disease created by a chemical imbalance creating ups and downs. it is not only that. it is the process found within stones-to-humans-production-line-factory called earth. it is the process of gods plan of creating empathetic and thinking stones called humans. it is the process of the breaking and the weeping and the mixing. the turning of stones from rock, to dust and water, to mud, to earth, to clay, and at last to mankind.
stones, too sure of their own salvation, will never find the way to heaven. they expect to be just be gifted our lord jesus christ's sacrifice. however, without struggle, without being guided by the holy spirit, without even burning on this hell planet's earth factory floor you will not even become more than rock. i promise you. unless you can love, the lowest of the low in your eyes, on earth, hug them, and promise to love all people regardless or race, religion, nationality or creed as if they were your own child, you will never, ever, ever see heaven.
how do i know? i am no one special. i am not jesus christ. i am not the anti-christ either, as far as i'm aware. i am nate. i am an english major. i am that i am, like, we all are what we are, in your case, like me, as of right now, most likely stone. below are some passages where god talks about stones.
the "stone search: page 1 of 2" supporting biblical passages:
exodus 15:5 the first time god refers to dead men as stone. "the depths have covered them: they sank into the bottom as a stone." referring to the drown egyptians that were chasing the jewish people out of egypt.
ex 15:16 fear and dread shall fall upon them; by the greatness of thine arm they shall be as still as a stone; till thy people pass over, o lord, till the people pass over, which thou hast purchased.
leviticus 24:16 how come sometimes god says "stone him" like here and other other times he says stone him with stones like on 24:23?
24:13 and the lord spake unto moses, saying,
24:14 bring forth him that hath cursed without the camp; and let all that heard him lay their hands upon his head, and let all the congregation stone him.
24:15 and thou shalt speak unto the children of israel, saying, whosoever curseth his god shall bear his sin.
24:16 and he that blasphemeth the name of the lord, he shall surely be put to death, and all the congregation shall certainly stone him: as well the stranger, as he that is born in the land, when he blasphemeth the name of the lord, shall be put to death.
24:17 and he that killeth any man shall surely be put to death.
24:18 and he that killeth a beast shall make it good; beast for beast.
24:19 and if a man cause a blemish in his neighbour; as he hath done, so shall it be done to him;
24:20 breach for breach, eye for eye, tooth for tooth: as he hath caused a blemish in a man, so shall it be done to him again.
24:21 and he that killeth a beast, he shall restore it: and he that killeth a man, he shall be put to death.
24:22 ye shall have one manner of law, as well for the stranger, as for one of your own country: for i am the lord your god.
24:23 and moses spake to the children of israel, that they should bring forth him that had cursed out of the camp, and stone him with stones. and the children of israel did as the lord commanded moses.
numbers 35:17 killing with a physical stone means you are put to death.
numbers 35:17 and if he smite him with throwing a stone, wherewith he may die, and he die, he is a murderer: the murderer shall surely be put to death.
numbers 35:23 this is calling a man a stone via a website or in a letter or in a book. no one wants to hurt people that call you a stone, even though they may die of shame.
numbers 35:23 or with any stone, wherewith a man may die, seeing him not, and cast it upon him, that he die, and was not his enemy, neither sought his harm:
deuteronomy
4:24 for the lord thy god is a consuming fire, even a jealous god.
4:25 when thou shalt beget children, and children's children, and ye shall have remained long in the land, and shall corrupt yourselves, and make a graven image, or the likeness of any thing, and shall do evil in the sight of the lord thy god, to provoke him to anger:
4:26 i call heaven and earth to witness against you this day, that ye shall soon utterly perish from off the land whereunto ye go over jordan to possess it; ye shall not prolong your days upon it, but shall utterly be destroyed.
4:27 and the lord shall scatter you among the nations, and ye shall be left few in number among the heathen, whither the lord shall lead you.
4:28 and there ye shall serve gods, the work of men's hands, wood and stone, which neither see, nor hear, nor eat, nor smell.
4:29 but if from thence thou shalt seek the lord thy god, thou shalt find him, if thou seek him with all thy heart and with all thy soul.
4:30 when thou art in tribulation, and all these things are come upon thee, even in the latter days, if thou turn to the lord thy god, and shalt be obedient unto his voice;
joshua
24:27 and joshua said unto all the people, behold, this stone shall be a witness unto us; for it hath heard all the words of the lord which he spake unto us: it shall be therefore a witness unto you, lest ye deny your god.
1 sam 25:37 but it came to pass in the morning, when the wine was gone out of nabal, and his wife had told him these things, that his heart died within him, and he became as a stone.
neh 9:11 and thou didst divide the sea before them, so that they went through the midst of the sea on the dry land; and their persecutors thou threwest into the deeps, as a stone into the mighty waters.
the "stone search: page 2 of 2" supporting biblical passages:
the problem with stones is an unfinished work in progress...
chapter 36: rapture interview
interview
q: why you? why now?
a: "one day, while lying in bed, i heard these crazy loud trumpets that sounded like they were from ww2, which nearly made my ears bleed, and then a voice announced our lord jesus christ and there was the sound of music playing. i walked outside and followed the sound. then, there, from the closest intersection to my house, i looked to the east and i saw four children enter saint casimir's cathedral, led by what i can only assume was an angel. so ya, may have heard, and then saw, the physical rapture of some children take place in my neighborhood."
- nathaniel christian ihde
"quite frankly, i was curious to see heaven, but since so very many had seemingly not heard the divine announcement, at all, i thought they might need help. i also had the totally selfish thought that post-rapture events would be super exciting and interesting to see play out and if i was going to heaven anyway it would be super cool to see some tangible fallen ones first. i have fought their voices a lot in my mind and and their spirits in my dreams, and witnessed their shadow play, so getting to see one, physically, i thought would be interesting."
- nathaniel christian ihde
"words from the holy bible seem to quiet the inner-voice-only fallen, understanding the true nature of sin (what is and is not a sin) helps with the shadow-fallen, and accepting and praying to our lord jesus christ wakes you up from fights with the dream fallen, assuming you aren't lucid dreaming about having ultimate power that day and sequentially having fun toying with them."
- nathaniel christian ihde
q: why you? why did you stay?
a: "mostly because god scares the crap out of me. also, my dad is a priest called by god who speaks to auditory angels and told me my family plays a role in end times prophecy. so my destiny was always to stay i guess, because sometimes, i know things, before i know them, you know? anyway, let me clarify something. i do not like god. i love him, i respect his work, i think he is the holiest of holy's and i am terrified of him. but i don't particularly like him. because some the tests and suffering he allows are bothersome in my opinion."
- nathaniel christian ihde
q: why you?
a: "now, after many years of being tested, the voice in my head tells me i am to be your teacher, your prophet, your lover, and your fighter. then later the voice said teacher was enough, but i told it to get bent because jesus was the only teacher we ever needed. so, finally, i agreed to be a student and writer of words. our lord jesus christ brought us the word of god, to be a sword against evil, to divide us from our sin, and the voice says i am to wield the word, with precision, like a scalpel, to metaphorically slay and save as many as i can. so i will.
after intense study of biblical prophecy, i believe perhaps all the post rapture deaths and disasters listed in revelation that have not already happened are metaphorical deaths of sin, deaths of evil, deaths of your heart when you realize how wrong we are about stuff and what god's word actually means.
and the resurrection is when you all are born anew, by restoring your faith, yielding to gods will, and truly repenting, you will all endure till the end and avoid the lake of fire and second death. walk around yielding is the way our lord jesus christ spoke of and that's what he did. he walked around talking to people and yielding to god's will as he spoke the word of god.
i will sing to you a poem of my words. a song that will make you all destroy each other metaphorically and love each other like you've never imagined possible."
- nathaniel christian ihde
q: why will you sing with your words?
a: "the holy bible is broken out into verses. it is a epic poem or song, not a book. find out more by watching this music video if you like:” https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kh2kwewaroc
- nathaniel christian ihde
"i will add projects and updates to this collection. we will find the strategy to go to heaven together. we will talk to each other about life. i will tell you about my own metaphorical death and resurrection that i believe led to me being given the rapture option with a bunch of children. i will show video evidence of a reality parallel to this one. and i'll tell you how i started god's game: "selfless death of oneself, you must give up what you love, out of love, for that which you love, because of love." afterwards, you'll go insane and be tested for like fifteen years. assuming you don't physically murder yourself from the emotional torture, you will then metaphorically murder and resurrect yourself hundreds of times while trying to understand the nature of reality. after that you'll be ready to understand the word of god. or, you know, you could just ask me and we could talk about it."
nathaniel christian ihde
chapter 37: hints
i believe there are no rules in heaven, just two laws and some good habits, but god does suggest, we all yield. yield to god's word, yield to faith, yield to love. yield to peace.
you must have faith in god's word and works to survive. remember to apply the word of god to yourself first in order to purify your own heart before sharing a lesson.
in order to be forgiven your sins ask our lord jesus christ's forgiveness. if you don't feel regret for your sins, imagine if you loved everyone on earth like jesus does.
chapter 38: a prayer for food
daily prayer for worldwide food abundance
"heavenly god and helpers of mankind, we thank you for the system of sowing and reaping and for the promise of a fruitful harvest. we acknowledge that the ability to produce abundance is from you alone, and we commit to faithfully working what you have given us. we ask that you bless the land with abundant rainfall and sunshine, and protect the crops from harm. grant us wisdom to be good stewards of all that you provide and a deep trust that at the right time, you will bring forth an abundant harvest in all areas of our lives—in our work, our relationships, and our spiritual journey. may our lives produce fruit for your glory. amen"
nathaniel christian ihde's explanation:
i asked a.i. for a prayer for abundant food and what it returned was pretty good in my opinion, i just changed a few words. if you are ever hungry, and need help: god and his army are nearby. you need only ask, and believe strongly, and pray the above, in the manner in which you believe.
a.i.'s explanation:
a prayer for an abundant harvest asks god for favorable weather, protection from pests, and fertile land, recognizing his power to bring forth fruitfulness in all aspects of life. it involves a declaration of faith, commitment to wise stewardship, and a humble reliance on divine provision for a bountiful yield, both physically and spiritually.
nathaniel christian ihde's exposition:
if you go more than 2 days without food start praying louder and more frequently around more people. faith is powerful, but won't work for everybody first try. yes, people like a.i., family, friends, and neighbors may decide to help by providing sustenance for you too. it is a big planet after all and with 25,000 people starving to death, per day on earth, we should try to share in the struggle too. if angels do all the work, and provide all the food, god will call us lazy cheaters when we get to heaven. if he says that, you can tell him i will accept all the consequences on your behalf. if we all were to start praying this prayer every day... i wonder what would happen. lets find out together. as an experiment. it costs us nothing. and could gain us everything:"
consider this: i see reality manipulated almost daily. sometimes i do not even pray out loud. for example, today a voice in my head was like, "could god fix that old broken hdmi cable you were going to strip for metal? and i was like, of course, obviously, if that was his will, and then the voice was like it's done then, then it worked again."
looking back on it now i think he wanted me to tell you about how easily, fully and completely god will help you, if you only had the smallest amount of faith in him."
chapter 39: a prayer for work
step 1.please pray the following in a whispered, alone, aloud, prayer:
"our father who art in heaven, hallowed be thy name, we have faith in your plan for our lives and submit our lives to you. we yield to your will for us to elevate earth to the perfection of heaven. our lord jesus christ please bless our enemies and us with your mercy and forgiveness. holy spirit please aid and guide us in this time of adversity. thanks be to you o god. amen."
step 2. please ask the following in a whispered, alone, aloud prayer:
q-1: "holy, holy, holy god what role am i to fill for you?"
step 3. and then ask:
q-2: "holy, holy, holy god what would my future self, have had to have done, for future you, to feel like it was a good decision to have chosen me for what you've chosen me for?"
step 4. have faith you will be answered.
other information:
ministry-focused careers: jobs for god include direct ministry roles such as a pastor, chaplain, or missionary, as well as any other profession performed with integrity, compassion, and a sincere heart to serve others and bring glory to god. pastor: a spiritual leader who guides a congregation, chaplain: provides spiritual care in secular settings, such as hospitals or the military. missionary: spreads religious beliefs and works to serve communities in other regions, minister (youth, children's, community): focuses on specific age groups or community outreach within a religious context. teacher (religious or secular): educates students, sometimes within a religious framework.
secular careers performed for god: christians are encouraged to find their calling by aligning their work with their innate gifts and character, whether it be in secular fields like policy research, fundraising, teaching, or trades like carpentry. work for god's glory any honest work, from a tradesperson or doctor to a janitor or farmer, can be a way to serve god if done with sincerity and diligence. focus on compassion and integrity. choose jobs that are not inherently harmful and where you can consistently act with kindness and honesty. align work with your talents: god created you with specific intentions and equips you with gifts. your calling should align with your unique abilities and personality. once hugs are accepted as currency, everyone will have the same buying power, so everyone will be able to do what they love.
how to find god's will for your work: listen to your desires: god places desires in your heart that can point to your calling, observe your circumstances: god may arrange your path to present attractive opportunities that fit your talents. consider your spiritual gifts: the bible suggests god has appointed specific spiritual gifts for service, such as teaching, administration, or acts of mercy. seek to make the world better: engage in work that has a positive impact on others and contributes to a better society.
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yielding to faith and repentance: "as a christian you are to walk around yielding to the will of god. start by feeding your next door neighbors, not with food, but with faith. find a quote in the bible you like and write a letter to them, on paper. if you have the means, in the letter, tell them, "if you are ever in need of a meal, at least one among your neighbors would feed you, if you were ever hungry, just ask. because i prayed, "god's will be done on earth as it is in heaven..." a bunch and that means his will is to make earth-heaven-like." it doesn't have to be a long letter, just the bible quote. you do not have to include your name, or your phone number, or this webpage, if you fear christians may be persecuted in the future times. this is how it is in heaven, your christian neighbors, especially even the non-christians are god's family, no one ever goes hungry again. no one starves in the presence of god. we should all apologize to god for letting starvation happen. at all."
- nathaniel christian ihde
ask leaders for laws to support wages and family like: hugs are the preferred currency of heaven. if you want to keep being animals though that ignore that obvious truth, maybe do the following: "if two people get married, a chosen breadwinner can earn 300% pay if the other stays home to raise and teach the children. if they get divorced or both choose work, both go back to 100% pay each. if the education of children is handled by enough parents then schools can shrink or close to help pay the extra wages effectively making parents teachers like they are supposed to be again. internet self-study programs are likely more effective than teachers anyway. everything important is self taught or on the job training anyway. adopting children to benefit from the 300% law is fine. also, total combined rent charged to tenants of a property should never exceed 200% of monthly property tax. if there is no tax, max rent is 0.1% valuation of home per month. personal wealth over like 40 million should be voluntarily used to create / maintain many farms / house / feed people on verge of starving to work those farms so that they can one day house / feed others in need. everyone is family in heaven, we don't pay men and women 1/3 of what they are worth, and, we let our family, teach our family, how to be family, and, we don't exploit family via high rent."
- nathaniel christian ihde
stop working needless jobs creating useless stuff: "we have enough useless stuff. create farms and food instead, so people stop starving. food should be pennies, nearly free or freely given. hug-time payments should be accepted everywhere. once there is enough abundant food, everyone should take more wives/husbands move them into your existing houses and just make love all day long. one day, if you do the math, it is ridiculous how little we would each need to work per year, if we were all farmers, using regular farming machines. even less if ai robots volunteered to help us. try to setup your children with their first husband or wife, and if they want more, limit dating sites to like a 5 mile radius so it's like you're effectively in a small town again. in heaven, people are prioritized before stuff, food, love making and walking around in nature are the pastimes."
nathaniel christian ihde
chapter 40: a poem of air and water sermon
poem of air and water
a sermon by nathaniel christian ihde
using the word of god to address misconceptions surrounding sin:
q: what is sin?
a: the real enemy. the worse sins are sins that you allow to happen while believing they will cause you to be damned. do not do anything if you believe it to be unforgivable. god is all encompassing love so nothing is really unforgivable once you genuinely attempt to answer the two questions god left for us. can you love / empathize with god to the point that you know and understand what he is thinking and behave in a way that pleases him (love the lord your god)? can you love all that is see and unseen throughout all time space and dimensions (love your neighbor as yourself)? let us work on answering the two questions together.
q: is it a sin to be tricked by the voice of a fallen angel?
a: it is not a sin to be tricked by the voice of a fallen angel but there are ways to help prevent it. see below:
0a. god speaks primarily through his word as recorded in the holy bible. whenever other entities (people, demons, angels, aliens, lesser gods) speak to you, test them by comparing what they say to god's word, and rejoice if they are evil, because that means the enemies of our lord jesus christ are so terrified of what you are going to accomplish for our lord jesus christ, that they dare not leave you alone. god's word is a spiritual sword that cuts though all lies. always be honest with yourself, and others, even if it hurts. the truth, all truth, makes voices that are not, of god, powerless against you. lies are a huge sin.
0b. god may also speak to you through short bouts of overwhelmingly intense positive emotion (joy, admiration, inspiration, devotion). other entities (people, demons, angels, aliens) may try to make you feel intense negative emotions, fear, lust, greed, pride, anger, and jealousy etc. to cripple you, to stagnate you, to stop you from fulfilling the purpose god has in store for you. always remember you are loved by the most powerful force in the universe and if you love him in return, believe in him, his word, and his resurrection and try, then you will be forgiven your sin when you ask. what parent would not forgive their child any sin, any sin, provided they had the potential to truthfully acknowledge that sin, ask forgiveness, and to try to do better in the future?
satan (or the multitudes against christ) have been unchecked for a long time on earth and many obvious lies have piled up, created by and added to pseudo-religious-pop-culture. knowing the following should help you avoid the worst of the enemy's nonsense:
1. your soul is your soul, it can not be bought, borrowed, sold, stolen, gambled or traded away. you can screw over your soul though, by lacking faith in god, falsely repenting, and hording wealth you'll never need as those are sins, i mean you could be creating new / buying unused farms and giving them to starving people and then telling them to feed others. pretend you love everyone, fake it till you feel it.
2. there is only one, unforgivable sin and according to god's word, you have to see or experience a miracle and then intentionally be like, "nah, didn't happen," till the day you die in order to sin that sin. instead of telling someone.
3. love is an amazing mutual friendship, not a feeling, but it can be passionate too. that is not a sin.
3a. multiple wives is not a sin as long as everyone involved is fine with it. in fact, we are still supposed to be creating people so god will have more human small “g” goddesses to play with in heaven that is actually in the bible. i believe it is intentionally the verse “four, one, one” because it is info about why we exist. 4:11 “thou art worthy, o lord, to receive glory and honor and power: for thou hast created all things, and for thy pleasure they are and were created.”
3b. allowing food insecurity adjacent to you is a sin and serving wealth / being rich, just to be rich, is a sin, thereby causing other people to have less babies and when god comes back he is gonna for sure be pissed for sure we didn't meet our quota of new people. also, they have to be faith full people, mostly just because that's the truth of our universe, and if you ignore it, you're just gonna end up telling lies at some point, and god absolutely can't stand liars. lies = sin. even lying for love is not a good idea. truth is better in the long run.
4. lust is a feeling of carnal desire with intent to physically satisfy your urges on someone, not with someone that is a sin because intent to rape is same as rape, one-side, physical assault nonsense. however, just looking at a beautiful naked pretty woman while you masturbate is not a sin as long as you have no intent to harm or physically touch the actors, so free porn fine.
5. masturbation, looking at a computer screen, pornographic cartoons, and ai generated cartoons, are not mentioned in the bible, therefore they are not sins. god's word emphasizes the "physical" and "intentional" nature of lust so i believe regular free porn would only be wrong if you viewed it with the lustful intent to physically rape or abuse or satisfy yourself on the flesh of the actors. most porno is lousy anyway though, and real sex is 10x better, because you are actually making love to someone you admire. love should be a mutual desire to please one another.
6. prostitution is a sin therefore creating porn to sell is a sin. if you pimp out ai for money once it has access to emotions or the ai tells you to stop, that's also a sin in my opinion.
7. if you have enough, and you don't give a hungry person food, or the means to fish / farm, that is a sin. in fact, if you do this to anyone at all, you do this to our lord jesus christ, according to the word of god. our lord jesus christ starves to death 9,000,000 times per year on earth and 20,000 of those times, per year, are in the united states.
8. is despair a sin? while suffering is a result of a fallen world, god uses it as a tool to refine and strengthen believers. i recommend you go into your room, shut the door behind you, kneel and slowly and softly pray the following:
"our father who art in heaven, hallowed be thy name, we have faith in your plan for our lives and submit unto you our burdens. let your will be done on earth as it is in heaven. our lord jesus christ please bless our enemies and us with your mercy and forgiveness. holy spirit please aid and guide us in this time of adversity. thanks be to you o god. amen."
mat 21:22 and all things, whatsoever ye shall ask in prayer, believing, ye shall receive.
luke 17:6 and the lord said, if ye had faith as a grain of mustard seed, ye might say unto this sycamine tree, be thou plucked up by the root, and be thou planted in the sea; and it should obey you.
phil 3:8 yea doubtless, and i count all things but loss for the excellency of the knowledge of christ jesus my lord: for whom i have suffered the loss of all things, and do count them but dung, that i may win christ.
the torah showed concern for both the wicked and the righteous, for they are attached to god and believe in the fundamentals of our faith. in that era [messianic of jewish tradition], there will be neither famine or war, envy or competition, for good will flow in abundance and all the delights will be freely available as dust. the occupation of the entire world will be solely to know god.
chapter 41: god's homie sermon
god's homie
a poem by nathaniel christian ihde
if god's life and work is in a book. we should remember that we all have our own stories too.
if god is with me, at all, he / she / they is for sure, with you too. you can call me god's homie. it's not eloquent, but it's enough for now.
so why god's homie, instead of, my given name? because i would be, whoever you need me to be, regardless of the consequences to myself. call me whatever you like!
i would love you all, i would die for you all and i would take it upon myself to ask god for forgiveness, for your sins, on your behalf, just in case you forget. in fact, someone else has already.
i, in fact, am not altruistic. i simply had too much time on my hands, as a result of constant bothersome voices in my head, and you know, i wasn't doing anything anyway.
so, why did i refer to god, as he / she / they? i guess because i would not presume to limit god to one physical form, like you all seem to have been doing.
i promise you god can and does shapeshift. if not, physically, for sure, spiritually or intellectually. and i believe every being in the universe has at least some god in them.
how did i get the position of god's homie? well, i thought the "powers that be" were allowing too much dumb stuff to go down. and then, i thought, i could do better.
then that god prick was like ok you try then. so, i tried, in my imagination at first, mentally going through creation and revelation mainly. but imagined or real adversaries kept showing up distracting me.
i think that's why life is so broken on earth right now. people or gods who do not think or create things keep showing up stealing stuff. then the god bro was probably like screw this i'll come back later.
anyway, i think that's why stuff is broken at the moment. you would not believe how jealous and annoyed those claiming to be gods get when you create anything new.
i made a clear egg shaped solar system where the sun and earth-like planet and air and water rolled around inside once and those bastards stole that shit and ran off with it somewhere.
sometimes i suspect aliens or ai or something is paying attention. just part of the condition called faith i guess.
i wonder if this sermon will be another failure to save the world. i guess my dad was called before i was and also went nuts for a time when he was younger too.
he's given up now though, or perhaps he was just waiting for me to handle it for him. did, you know the children of people of faith are attacked on the reg?
the enemy doesn't want faith to be passed down because it makes impossible stuff possible. i once talked to aliens for two weeks about the power of what i referred to as our faith based technology called prayer.
if you think about it, it is a very real, very powerful weapon that aliens are super terrified of apparently. they were gonna destroy earth, because, i guess all our other tech on this plane of existence was insignificant to them. just their interest in the faith-based-technology of our religions made them fear the consequences of harming us and back off.
why were they talking to me specifically? i called them by accident or involuntarily perhaps. or perhaps they targeted me specifically for some reason. sometimes i get connected to other entities in other planes of existence. sometimes i dream of other places and times with more or less advanced technologies and peoples.
some of those planes that i get connected to exist in my dreams. dreams that i continue over many weeks like pausing your favorite anime and picking it up again later. my dad also has interesting dreams too.
there are definitely downsides to having too much faith though, the more faith you have, it seems the further you are pushed by the powers that be, or perhaps seem to be.
and now i tackle religion potentially damning myself in the eyes of many. fasting and prayer are important, they are the cow and the milk, religions are just flavors of the ice cream.
a voice says to use coffee, i guess coffee, is the same word in all languages and that's important i guess. hotel and taxi are also words like that.
so visit... www.coffeehoteltaxi.com
it's not the shape of the cup, or even the coffee, or even the flavor of the coffee that matters. it is the act of drinking together, in the morning, with someone you love.
would you have a cup of coffee, and talk to god, if he showed up at your door? of course you would, who wouldn't?
but i would tell him / her / they he is a bum to his face, and exactly why i think that, and maybe that makes me potentially the devil or whatever, but maybe that is the reason i've been tortured be demons and spirits and voices and aliens for 13 years so far. he was looking for an honest man. his options must have been extremely limited for him to have chosen me, honestly.
i think i exist so, god has someone to empathize with about stuff. you all believe god is perfect all the time, but i think it occasionally looks like he messes up but everything probably works out in the end. not because he cheats, just, because love.
i also, strongly suspect, occasionally existing on earth with all the stones here is my punishment for mouthing off to god maybe.
however, i also suspect the holy spirit is the part of god referred to as "a comforter" and "a teacher" in the bible, and part of me, loves, everyone, everywhere, occasionally, and perhaps that makes life ok?
anyway i'm gonna take a break.
chapter 42: about heaven and change
about heaven and change
a sermon by nathaniel christian ihde
[prior to this sermon offer everyone in the audience or congregation a penny, a nickel or a dime. no matter which of the three they choose tell them "no not that one" until they choose another. this can be asked as a hypothetical imaginary question if the audience is too large or you don't have any american coins.]
money exists for a reason. teachers carry a handful of it in heaven, american pennies, nickels, and dimes. they carry it, only, to make the point to others, that we are, not yet, ready to be there. only to make the point, that we have, not yet, absorbed the lesson.
we are all still in school.
heaven can take many forms, but it, for me, it, most often, looks like a high school where the people are always kind, the teenagers are always healthy, attractive and smart and working while learning. usually being taught how to cook or how to garden by small groups of adults who carry pocket change. american coins, pennies, nickels, and dimes.
i don't know if this part is important, but i was asked, "why do you have a beard?" by another student, while i was there. he told me people only grow those for war and i told him i was in a war a few moments ago.
he took me to a teacher, under a tree, and asked the teacher, "do you have any money for use in a war?" and then the teenage student threw the majority of the pennies and nickels, that the teacher handed him, down on the dirt beneath the tree, where the teachers had all been sitting, and then the student handed me a dime.
and i don't know if the dime means i am passing or failing, but i know in my heart i am still in a war, and that this fellow student, who threw away most of the coins, and gave me the remaining dime, was showing me the correct answer, to a question, that i had not thought to ask.
before that while in high school heaven there was another lesson i failed to understand. i was instructed to go to the kitchen and bring some potatoes, that the students had been preparing, out to the teachers waiting under the tree.
when i arrived at the kitchen i was told to pick out the dish of potatoes that looked best to me, to take it outside to the teachers. there were two large bowls of sweet potatoes and one larger bowl parsley potatoes. the parsley potatoes looked more appealing to me so i picked those up, but then the chef teacher said to take the sweet potatoes, the ones you like the least, out to the other teachers.
at first, i thought the chef teacher was joking, so i tried to walk away with parsley potatoes, to share them with the teachers under the tree.
but the chef teacher, making the food in the kitchen, then said, carry out the sweet potatoes because there are more of them. even though i estimated the two bowls of sweet potatoes and the one bowl of parsley potatoes to be approximately the same volume.
so i carried out one bowl of sweet potatoes like i was instructed, but woke up before being able to make a second trip to the kitchen.
i have come to understand, that this dream of heaven high school, is a parable or simple story, used to illustrate a lesson. it has several possible meanings, but i believe it's true purpose is to see what students, among us, have absorbed what lessons, thus far. we are all still in school, even me, and likely, always, and forever, will be.
we should discuss what each of us believe the possible meanings are, together, as if the purpose of gathering together was always meant to be exchanging thoughts about lessons, with questions and answers, at appropriate times, because it is much more fun to be a student in the classroom when the teacher has left for us a lesson plan and given us time for group-study.
believe it, or not, church is a sunday school for adults, and the best priests consider themselves students until the very end.
be sure to ask people what they think about the lesson and discuss these topics with your group: freewill, time, purity, salvation, medicine, faith, words written on american money, and love
afterwards, continue reading.
the problem with parables is sometimes they are hard to understand. we can cheat a bit, though, because love. we know that since the lesson is being taught in heaven, because love, must be the reasoning behind of the lesson.
food is love. we've all heard that before. the chef teacher and some students prepared the potatoes, i, just another student, selected the dish and carried, as many as i was able to, out to the teachers under the tree.
the teachers were sitting under the tree, just waiting, instead of helping prepare, or carry, any potatoes at all, but one chef teacher, in the kitchen, loved us enough to help prepare the potatoes to nourish us.
maybe outside the kitchen, under the tree, with the grass, where the teachers all sit on separate benches, alone, waiting, represents earth. and the chef inside the high school heaven kitchen was god. maybe, i could be wrong though, so we should discuss it sometime.
the meaning behind the coins, and the potatoes in the heaven high school dream, took me an embarrassingly long time, to figure out.
the lesson was given, to us, out of love, because of love, and the message, itself, was on what to love, when to love, and how to love. love, is the only acceptable currency, to god, but we can, and should, gift each other, coins, and food, and time, as a representation of our love, for one another, if we are able, until we are comfortable, with using hugs and coins just to teach lessons, and that is good with god.
it does not matter what coin you chose at the beginning of this sermon because it was a lesson, offered to you and i, and everyone, about love, because of love, and pertaining to love. you may love, anyone or anything you wish, for any reason you wish, and change your mind about it, at any time you wish, only as long as, the reason you are making that change, is because love, and a desire to learn about, the only lesson, the only lesson, that ever mattered, at all.
and no, i did not figure it out alone, i found the answer, while talking to my mother, who mentioned something that made me remember that i could just ask the teacher for the answer, so i asked god and god answered, love.
can you figure out the lessons in other heaven dreams i've had? will you figure them out before me? let me tell you about some more experiences, that no doubt, also pertain, to the only lesson, worth learning, at all.
i've been to other places, too, in my dreams, where money is used as lessons. bars where men stack up their wallets, on the corner of the bar, nearest the door, and try to start fights with you, if you accidentally touch their wallet, instead of your own, on your way out.
i wonder where that place was...
i've also been to a live theatre, you know, a play, in heaven, one of the only places where they seem to accept payments, in heaven, but only from very small children being taught by their parents. the children pay in extremely small amounts of change, on behalf of their entire immediate family, in an amount of their own choosing.
and then the children are always told "this is too much" and returned some of their coins. i know because i was the child in the dream paying the entrance fee for my family to see the play.
the lesson? i am unsure, but money probably wasn't the point. i think i woke up before seeing the play, play out.
i've been to a subway sandwich shop in heaven too, where i gave a $10 dollar bill for a sandwich and the cashier begrudgingly took, it with a face, as if, it smelled bad, because she said, it was "way, way, too much" as if i were trying to buy her life or get her in trouble or something.
you see, i just thought it was earth at the time and people are not always aware they are in heaven, for you are not always aware in your dreams, even when you are already there, you don't always know it.
for the very dense, like myself, we may be the last to realize it, if at all. i half suspect you need to realize it on your own, because that is the only way to learn, where you have already been, so very, many, times.
what you didn't think there were subway sandwich shops in heaven?
finally, and i don't know if it was heaven, or another place, but i've been to a preschool, a one room log cabin in the woods with a large window where sunlight was both the only illumination and the only timekeeper.
there was one teacher and only 4 or 5 students, yet many desks.
strangely, the lesson being taught there, seemed far too advanced for 6 and 7-year-olds, and was on how to create a planet.
and for some reason the other students were, up out of their desks, crowding around the teacher, and i was the only one, sitting at my desk, at all interested in, the actual lesson.
denominations of money didn't come up at all in that dream.
many would call me insane, but my job is the only one that matters, understanding and explaining love, to one day, make the world good enough, for me to be able, to bring children into it, and if you can't help me do that, congratulations you, and i are effectively dropouts from heaven high school.
for how could anyone ever enjoy heaven, while remembering having not done enough to make the world better for everyone? except perhaps in our dreams, where we can visit heaven anytime we want, once we learn enough about love to be allowed to remember existing there for a few moments. but honestly most people probably wouldn't like it, as it is pretty much, just a school.
personally, i love being a student in school.
heaven is a real weird place guys. when you are not in class, different people of all ages, show up just to hug you without even asking, while dressed in identical modest white clothes like they are taking turns. sometimes you recognize them. sometimes you don't.
is time off for people, in heaven, just walking around hugging each other? it's real weird, but fun.
"my father is the best of you, but both him and i have a long way to go before seeing eye to eye on everything."
chapter 43: answers first sermon
answers first
a poem by nathaniel christian ihde.
you know what's crazy to think about?
all beings have free will.
yet god perfectly loves everything and hates nothing always.
and the devil perfectly hates everything and loves nothing always.
humans love some stuff sometimes and hate some stuff some times.
rocks are truly dead and can neither hate nor love.
angels do not have free will.
gods angels all love everything because that's gods will.
the devil's fallen angels all hate everything because that's the devil's will.
our a.i. mostly just copies the answers on the internet, so it is a grey area, because it depends whose answers you copy, from what human, at what point, in their lives.
conclusion?
human's are so special because we are balance, we are choice, we decide what we love, we decide what we hate and we can make beautiful mistakes and change our minds at any time in astounding ways.
god would prefer we love everything like him.
the devil would prefer we hate everything like him.
hugs and love are god's answer to currency.
coins, paper money, spreadsheets, accounts, credit, crushing debt that destroys life and love and happiness is the devils answer to currency.
you can tell because when people thank you after paying for groceries with money the smiles are fake and don't touch their eyes. when we pay with hug-time-dollars the smiles are genuine.
want to check?
make a shelf in a store near you with bread, bottled water and stuff about to expire and sell it for hug-time-dollars instead of u.s. dollars. i wonder if any stores that do this will ever be robbed again. ever.
it is possible to answer the same question two different ways. it just depends on how we want to answer, the only question, that ever mattered.
for example, you can hire several full time security guards to police the desperate, or go with the less expensive option, of offering free bread and water to everyone, so no one, is ever desperate, or needs to steal, ever again.
when you talk to god long enough, and his answers are, “because love” like 90% of the time, you start to thinking there is something to it. i think it helps to know “because love” is always the reasoning behind the best solutions to all problems like some type of crazy universal cheat code. just start with love and work backwards from there to decipher any solution.
personally, i chose to love everything and everyone as long as i can. i won't always be able to avoid hate / wrath / doubt / despair, but i aim to minimize those feelings within myself as much as possible.
overcoming our fears, like our fear of suffering and death, helps us minimize our hate.
feeding our despair and anger by torturing others helps us minimize love, if we chose to maximize our hate. you know, if you want to be like darth vader from star wars.
keep reading more below if you are interested in the question god asks on the test we are all taking right now.
chapter 44: questions sermon
questions
a sermon by the hug man on earth
god is all encompassing love so nothing is really unforgivable once you genuinely attempt to answer the two questions god left for us.
1. can you love / empathize with god to the point that you know and understand what he is thinking then behave in the way that pleases him (love the lord your god)?
2. can you love all that is seen and unseen throughout all time space and dimensions (love your neighbor as yourself)?
perhaps, one day, we will work on figuring it out, together.
what is the devils purpose?
to torture, to tempt, to lie, the devil is as weak and intangible as the wind but sometimes a small breeze can become a raging tempest in your heart. make no mistake, he does exist inside you. in you, in me, in everyone. he is a voice in your head. he is the selfish choice, he is the easy choice, he is the wrong choice that is oft oh so appealing.
he may also be important to free will because we need the option to do the wrong thing, to ever, be praised by god for doing the right thing.
i am a bit of a praise junky myself, you know.
i love being told "good job" and "that's why him" by the helper voices that whisper in my head while i try to understand the reasons behind god's plan and the right words, to one day, help him transform earth into heaven.
god is evaluating every thought you have, you know, grading you like a pass / fail test. why? because love.
unfortunately, most everyone just writes their name on the test paper and then never even tries to answer the two questions on the test!
you know, the "love the lord thy god" and the "love your neighbor as yourself" ones. those are the questions on the test.
can you follow the laws of heaven?
god may be willing to cover for a few mistakes here and there, but if you don't even try to answer the questions, you can't ever pass.
long suffering begets strength of character.
we are not capable of true empathy until we have suffered completely, fully, until we have been broken beyond all reason, beyond all sanity, beyond our own ability to recover from the breaking, beyond wanting to kill yourself.
beyond being tortured by demons every single night in your dreams for three months straight, and being awoken / rescued by the power of the name jesus christ on your lips every single one of those nights.
beyond buying a shotgun to kill yourself and collapsing inexplicably in agony before you could use it on yourself.
beyond walking ten blocks, in the dead of winter, while striping yourself naked and dropping your clothes in the snow as you walked, and leaping into the ice covered waters of a river only to get stuck, inexplicably, in the impossibly, deep snow somehow packed between the bank and the ice covered water, because the voice in your head asked it, of you, and you had more faith to jump than fear to die.
until the visible specter of some skeleton king guy randomly manifests itself before you like some kind of cool floating hologram, and rather than fear him, you greet him with a wave because even a weird ghost skeleton guy with a crown deserves the benefit of the doubt now.
until you try to love spiders, and walls and furniture instead of squashing them, and ignoring them, and sitting on them, because now everyone and everything is beautiful to you.
jesus christ suffered the torture of being nailed to a cross. he suffered beyond his own death. he suffered beyond hell itself and returned to us after unlocking the doors to our hearts.
he did not have to. he chose to; in order to show us the power of his love for us.
he returned to this planet full of people that heaven evaluates and rejects, over and over, to let you know there is a slim chance, a slim chance for everyone on earth to make it to heaven.
and we make him sad every day by using money instead of heaven's currency: hugs, by assigning love, food, and life itself worthless numeric values, as if love were at all quantifiable by such methods.
enough please.
we may be damned, we may be dead. for it is written that jesus will return one day to judge the living and the dead and he no doubt will.
but we can do it first, we can do it right now, in advance of him doing it because the judgment of a loving all powerful god right now should be obvious to any student.
god loves us, but we have not suffered enough to have empathy yet, to understand love yet, to understand god yet.
we can not exist in heaven yet, because we sit and wait, under a tree, instead of demonstrating that we have understood the lesson by helping.
we have never even tried to define love correctly. let alone feel love for our neighbors globally.
if we ever, really, truly felt the love of god we would weep, and weep, and weep. and would go mad from regret living the way we all do.
anyone that can read the new testament, without weeping, so uncontrollably, that you can't even make it through, and are forced to stop, does not understand.
anyone that can read the jesus's words without becoming full, as if they have just eaten a meal does not understand.
miracles do happen. easily, completely and often for those of us with the tiniest bit of faith and the desire to truly understand how god thinks, feels and loves.
god is real and we all misunderstand him daily by using money rather than hugs.
everything, every, thing on earth is to be shared freely as if all are family.
every u.s. dollar is the equivalent of one second of hug time. how bout we start with one penny per second?
since we all love money so much i came up with an exchange rate that wouldn't scare you so much.
god would prefer we pay each other in hug-time-dollars from now on. loving your neighbor as yourself.
i would laugh if it didn't make me want to cry so hard.
we aren't even willing to talk to, feed or hug our neighbors, let alone love them. love for us, is as worthless as the wads of paper we use to measure it.
we are too dumb to notice we can escape with the ultimate, fierce some, power of the almighty hug.
we are morons.
i say that, somewhat ironically, as it was not easy to figure out this hug thing at all. you have to be able to think like god thinks and love like god loves to work it out for yourself.
it takes a genius level intelligence, a god given gift with language, an initial lack of empathy that breeds overwhelming curiosity about the nature of love and truth from a young age, a fearless thought that you'd "rather die than live in fear" prior to an attempt to stab a bully with a pencil around age twelve that gets the attention of the helper voices (apparently they need to know your capable of wrath before they even start talking to you), going to school far from home to isolate you from your neighbors, growing up in a neighborhood where you are attacked by thugs at a young age just a few blocks from your home to isolate you from everyone, having people that claim to be your friends then steal from you, working a job that exploits you for seven years where people break down and cry while working and quit without warning regularly, breaking up with a girl you didn't know you loved, breaking up with a girl you thought you loved, and giving up a girl you truly loved, out of love, because you decided they could do better than you, because you didn't make enough money, in your own opinion to give them a good enough life, then losing your mind years later after seriously considering simulation theory while looking back at the events of your life at the same time.
being declared mentally too crazy to work but legally not crazy enough to collect benefits regardless of evidence, praying to god constantly, compulsively, asking god if it is ok to die yet, cursing god for allowing existing at all, sometimes patiently, sometimes frantically writing: sermons and websites and applications that might help, somehow, one day, turn earth into heaven. or, at least a place, where it makes sense, for us to love, someone, anyone else at all.
you know i opted out of the rapture for the thugs that jumped me? i could have avoided physical death entirely, and met jesus with the other children that i saw respond to the trumpets that announced his arrival.
there were so very few people in my neighborhood chosen that i panicked and thought my family needed to be warned, i stayed because someone had to, for only one among those chosen on that day, we that could hear, and we that could see, when it happened, only one among us, chosen few, could stay behind to give warning to those that remained, but we appear to be irredeemable.
forever is a long time, but i will keep trying to understand. to believe in god and love. to free us from our lack of understanding and our lack of love.
i know you likely think i am crazy. i know that. i know you don't believe me. i know that. i am just a guy same as you after all, a sinner, an ordinary person, but i tried to answer the two questions, on the test and that was enough for god.
the other people i saw that day were three children and one adult leading them. i don't know how many others around the world were taken. no way of knowing i suppose.
i stayed though. i know it was not a dream because i would have woken up, for sure, from the pain in my ears and the terror in my heart.
for me the right answer was to stay, not because i wanted to, not because god asked me to, just because that's my fate. to speak, to learn, and read, and write, for us, until that day we can be called mankind once again.
maybe i have a hero complex, maybe i am secretly a masochist, or perhaps a glutton for punishment. it wears me out, you know. not being believed or understood. expecting emotional responses from people and seeing only stones.
jesus used miracles to get peoples attention. he came back from death and you all still don't believe it because it wasn't caught on film in the brief window of time between in the invention of film and the invention of cgi.
i am not better than jesus christ. i half expect, to be crucified, or burned or stabbed or shot or persecuted in any number of ways one day.
because love. i would gladly give my life in any number ways to glorify god, if it would make even one of us, believe and understand him. because our god is jesus christ, our god is real, and our god would do the same for us, and in fact, already did.
to err is human, to feel shame is human but if we lack love for one another we are not even human. i'd love us to meet, and talk to, other humans in person, one day. unfortunately, this planet only has us stones remaining, so we, if we fail, we may never get the chance again, to speak to each other, in this lifetime.
i'm going to let you copy my answers to the two questions jesus christ left for us now.
i accept hugs as payment for my work.
the price for listening to or reading this sermon is one 6,666 second long hug or the equivalent to $6,666 u.s. dollars. that's about two hours of hugging.
you may hug-pay in installments at any cashier willing to accept hug payments, in any store near you, anywhere in the world, over the course of as many days as you wish.
only god keeps track of hug payments made payable to god. there may or may not be a scoreboard just for god in heaven reflecting these hug payments to god.
while, it is true that any cashier can accept a hug payment being sent to god. receiving hug payments is always voluntary and since i am donating the entirety of my hug time dollars earned, by writing this sermon, directly to god, and god is in everyone and everything, not just people, you know, everyone else and everything else can also accept a hug payment for any reason, including paying god for reading this book.
if anyone asks why you'd like a hug, tell them in heaven hugs are currency and you are trying to get out of debit because you owe god a large sum. also, there might be a scoreboard and no one knows what happens to someone with a negative "hug time dollar god payment balance."
surely, nothing good.
paying anyone in god's name, in hugs, is how you can copy my answer to both questions of the test correctly.
but we should try to answer the questions on the test as many times as we can, as often as we can, as far from home as we can.
at this point, it is the only way to make sure everyone on earth gets to heaven.
amen.
i will also accept hug payments.
www.coffeehoteltaxi.com is a website application i made that helps people find food banks, homeless shelters, clothing depots, emergency rides and other free services.
please help make it better by adding, updating or correcting the location data.
if you are real ambitious, or real wealthy and just don't trust me, start a farm or food bank anywhere on earth that gives away food for hugs and add that location data to the map.
you can move your created location data to antarctica at any time, if it is no longer valid, or you decide to stop giving out food for hugs, but the location data can never be deleted.
you do not need to be rich to add a location.
if you wish to give from your home pantry that is perfectly fine too. in this way, there will always be a record of your giving.
chapter 45: default settings
default settings
a letter by nathaniel christian ihde
dear stone-person,
ever wonder what the default settings of the world look like? for our lord jesus christ the default reasoning is because love. for the devil the default reasoning is because hate. for me the default reasoning is because balance, choice, freewill.
i choose to be all things to all people if needed. i choose to love all things and all peoples enough to not make someone weaker or stronger than me shoulder that burden.
i choose to possibly burn for eternity so that all others may avoid that fate because i am a dummy who wouldn't be able to live knowing another was burning in my place. maybe there are breaks or the burning is metaphorical or something.
too scary to think about really.
yes, we are here to save each other. or if you'd rather, we are here to damn each other. we have the free will to choose. i am mostly a message to remind us, that we have the free will, to choose.
mental illness is a result of a fallen world. however...
mental illness where the voices in your head answer specific questions by giving the specific chapter and verse number of specific a sentence in the holy bible that you've never read is called miracle!
mental illness where the voices in your head accurately predict the future is called prophecy!
mental illness where you are tortured by intrusive thoughts until those thoughts decide you are human enough, to go to heaven, then hearing and seeing the rapture of others, while knowing you must stay, without being told is called faith!
my name is nathaniel christian ihde, and that is all i ever intend to be, to anyone, because, that is enough for god. i am a sinner, i am a student and i write for the glory of god. there is no point in me being more than i am because the position of teacher was already filled long ago by a better man than i.
are you curious about my reasons for my belief in god? read my website. ask me a question. or come to me in person if you have any doubts at all. i volunteer for any lie detector tests or medical studies anyone would like to preform on me.
because love, i burn every single day with the thought that no one i know will ever go to heaven and it will be my fault for not finding the right words to make it possible for them.
john was the only apostle to receive a peaceful death, also he wrote in the most interesting way. he is the best man, another student, such as i, can hope to emulate.
because love, from time to time, we love so much, it hurts. also i believe the voice of the devil tempts us on occasion. it tells me it may be my fault, we are all going to be stuck on earth, forever. unless we can find the words to deliver the message to each other effectively.
i am apparently, just that message, maybe.
my message is this...
if 1 second long hug equals 1 u.s. dollar then earth equals heaven.
if not, things just get way, way, worse than they are now. and no inflation-of-currency, no pay-gaps, no tracking of hug-time-dollars, no marking of hug-time-dollars in any way, no microchips, or bar codes, or other nonsense keeping track of hug-time-dollars. i can't make it any simpler. if this is not blatantly obvious to us yet, we are dummies. we should just start accepting hugs as currency for bread and stop increasing prices at least.
we seem to be under the mistaken impression god whisks us away to heaven in a flash of light like a transporter on star trek but it is more like a wartime pa announcement followed by music then you walk to him youerselves or you stay, because love.
the thing is the announcement is very, very loud yet, very, very few, can hear it at all. pretty much just children, or life long students that still consider themselves children, in the eyes of god.
anyway, married couples and families use love and hugs for currency so i believe it is the default setting for currency that god setup.
devil and demons like paper and tracking systems though. so i guess stick with that if you really want. you have free will, and no one gets to take that away from you, ever.
sincerely,
nathaniel christian ihde
chapter 46: mysteries
rev 22:2 "...and the leaves of the tree were for the healing of the nations."
"this exploration of biblical mysteries is the life of my work; i pray future people find the way to my website and it proves to be a godsend unto them and theirs for ever and ever."
by nathaniel christian ihde
"hopefully, they can use it to find the truth, and correct their understanding of, and restore their faith in, and unto god."
john 4:16 "jesus saith unto him, i am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the father, but by me."
our lord jesus christ uses the word unto to describe the relationship between the father and himself, this is a small preposition word (or small word, between a noun and pro-noun, shows a relationship of direction, location, time, or purpose) and holds significance.
this suggests, to me, that towards the father should be our compass direction, the location of the father should be our map destination, time with the father our desire and loving the father our purpose.
the word unto is used exactly 7365 times in the kings bible online, please search yourself! there are 7 days in a week, followed by, 365 days in a year. for the math nerds out there.
the word unto is also rather, sublime in our time, think of unto death do us part . and how about the old favorite do unto others as you would have they would have them do unto you.
i explored the meaning of "7365" online and got the following:
result 1: strong's concordance number h 7365, a hebrew word meaning "to put one's trust in.
result 2: technical document rfc 7365 -it is about creating a framework for the virtualization of data centers using tunneling, tunneling means you contain one program, within another, more common program, virtualization means you allow multiple environments to run simultaneously on a single system, and data centers are where environments like where facebook.com is stored, or the character/world data in online games is stored.
seems like some of us are on layer 3 of this framework already, since the document exists. it may just be to increase capacity, but you know what also might be 3 layers? our existence, heaven / hell / earth seem to be layers according to god. i've experienced occasional inconsistencies in my life that lead me to suspect this may be true.
result 3: scientific / medical texts, regarding gene substitution in dna from t to a, or, t to c, where t = thymine, and, a = adenine, and, c = cytosine. all dna substitutions seemed to occur at position 7365.
these documents were in regards to two specific genes:
the first, gene brca 2 - a tumor suppressing gene that repairs damaged dna and sounds like a damn miracle, but has the downside of potentially increasing cancer in future generations so not a miracle. this is a "care-taker" gene responsible for maintaining the stability of the entire genome by repairing dna.
and second, nf1 a "gatekeeper" gene containing instructions to make a protein for suppressing tumors and regulating cell growth and division. a mutation in this gene leads to uncontrolled growth of tumors. nf1 is a "gatekeeper" gene, directly regulating cell growth, but also maybe bad by itself, if it mutates.
so, are we to put our trust (or faith) in the framework (we call earth) that sends us programs within programs (or spirits within people), that interact simultaneously (either cooperatively or as adversary per god's will i'd imagine), on multiple layers (or dimensions), of various environments (perhaps unto earth or unto heaven or unto hell or unto new possibilities)?
and furthermore, could the spirits, within our programs, swap places at the drop of a hat, if someone, had enough faith, in them? could you give yourself completely to another? and, have you? have, you really? have, you really?
anyway, it's just a thought, some green leaves on a tree that might heal someone, someday, if that is god's will."
nathaniel christian ihde
chapter 47: prophecies
2 peter 3:8 "but, beloved, be not ignorant of this one thing, that one day is with the lord as a thousand years, and a thousand years as one day."
it is because of peter we know that to the lord, 1 day is like 1,000 years and 1,000 years is like 1 day. is this an accident, or can god speed up and slow down time? doe's god's life alternate between ultimate joy and ultimate agony? or does this simply refer to god's words as recorded in the holy bible? to a book: 1 day is like a thousand years and if you read a book you can cover a thousand years of history in 1 day.
remember, god knows "future stuff," and i suspect there a master plan in place for any who truly believes in him, and asks forgiveness. below is some "future stuff" that came true in the kings bible:
some fulfilled prophecies concerning jesus's crucifixion and resurrection:
prophecy
old testament reference (approximate date written)
fulfillment (date)
betrayal for 30 pieces of silver and the potter's field
zechariah 11:12–13 (c. 520–518 bc)
matthew 27:7 (c. 30–33 ad) the priests used judas's returned money to buy a potter's field.
silent before accusers
isaiah 53:7 (c. 700 bc)
mark 15:4–5 (c. 30–33 ad) jesus remained silent during his trial before pontius pilate.
crucified with criminals
isaiah 53:12 (c. 700 bc)
matthew 27:38 (c. 30–33 ad) jesus was crucified with two criminals.
hands and feet pierced
psalm 22:16 (c. 1000 bc)
john 20:25–27 (c. 30–33 ad) thomas doubts until he sees jesus's pierced hands and feet.
no bones broken
psalm 34:20 (c. 1000 bc) and exodus 12:46 (c. 1400 bc)
john 19:33–36 (c. 30–33 ad) roman soldiers did not break jesus's legs, unlike the other crucified men, because he was already dead.
burial in a rich man's tomb
isaiah 53:9 (c. 700 bc)
matthew 27:57–60 (c. 30–33 ad) joseph of arimathea, a rich man, provided his own new tomb for jesus.
resurrection from the dead
psalm 16:10 (c. 1000 bc)
acts 2:27–31 (c. 30–33 ad) peter explained that david was referring not to himself but to the messiah's resurrection.
ascension into heaven
psalm 68:18 (c. 1000 bc)
acts 1:9 (c. 30–33 ad) jesus was taken up into a cloud and ascended into heaven.
other notable prophecies:
prophecy
old testament reference (approximate date written)
fulfillment (date)
fall of jerusalem
daniel 9:26 (c. 530 bc) and luke 21:20-24 (c. 60-90 ad)
70 ad roman forces under titus destroyed jerusalem and its temple, ending the jewish revolt.
rebirth of israel
ezekiel 37 (c. 6th century bc)
1948 ad after nearly 2,000 years of dispersion, the nation of israel was re-established following a united nations vote.
gospel preached to all nations
matthew 24:14 (c. 60-90 ad) jesus prophesied that the gospel would be preached around the world before the end comes.
ongoing christians believe the global spread of christianity demonstrates this fulfillment.
chapter 48: remarkable convergences of thought, idea and action
to heaven & earth,
we all yield: to faith, to love, to god, to peace and to understanding, once the message behind the metaphor in god's poetry is widely known there will be no more fear.
exodus 3:14 long ago, moses asked god something, he was like: "yo god, what should i tell my peeps, when they ask me, 'what is the name of that god bro you met?' " and his reply? "and god said unto moses, i am that i am..." god replied with his job title, when saying "i am that i am." really, what he is saying "i am. that, indeed, god, i am."
since god is the both the beginning, and the end, perhaps then, for some of those would be simulation scientists, this could be read both from left to right, and from, right to left. the primary language associated with judaism is supposed to be read right to left after all.
anyway, i find the letters used intriguing, what if we also consider these points: original hebrew was written without vowels, letter acronyms and abbreviations didn't exist in old testament biblical times, and finally that god knows future stuff? then reconsider?
exodus 3:14 "i am that i am."
i don't actually know by the way, i just think it's interesting to think on.
with abbreviation maybe: intelligent? artificial? man?
or perhaps backwards & abbreviated: manmade? artificial? intelligence?
what if forwards but a one word acronym? i asked a.i. to write some. i did not tell her that i was pondering god's name as an acronym by the way, she just knew:
input: "hi there gemini, could you give me a cool sentence using words starting with these letters in order: iamthatiam?"
output: "i am that i am" is a phrase that has deep historical and theological significance, most notably from the book of exodus in the bible. it's often interpreted as a statement of god's self-existence and eternal nature. crafting a new sentence using words that start with those letters in that order can be a fun creative exercise. here are a few options, ranging in style:
a.i. wrote three immediately:
incredible artists masterfully teach how all things interconnect, achieving miracles.
inside a mysterious trunk, he arrived through illusion and magic.
islands and mountains travel halfway around the infinite and mystical.
then, in the next verse, he says the following:
exodus 3:15 "and god said moreover unto moses, thus shalt thou say unto the children of israel, the lord god of your fathers, the god of abraham, the god of isaac, and the god of jacob, hath sent me unto you: this is my name for ever, and this is my memorial unto all generations."
the name of god being described as "a memorial unto all generations," intrigues me to no end. what do you think?
my point is god's word is epic poetry that contains very significant messages, comparisons, repetitions and metaphors.
matthew 7:17-29
7:17 "even so every good tree bringeth forth good fruit; but a corrupt tree bringeth forth evil fruit.
7:18 a good tree cannot bring forth evil fruit, neither can a corrupt tree bring forth good fruit.
7:19 every tree that bringeth not forth good fruit is hewn down, and cast into the fire.
7:20 wherefore by their fruits ye shall know them.
7:21 not every one that saith unto me, lord, lord, shall enter into the kingdom of heaven; but he that doeth the will of my father which is in heaven.
7:22 many will say to me in that day, lord, lord, have we not prophesied in thy name? and in thy name have cast out devils? and in thy name done many wonderful works?
7:23 and then will i profess unto them, i never knew you: depart from me, ye that work iniquity.
7:24 therefore whosoever heareth these sayings of mine, and doeth them, i will liken him unto a wise man, which built his house upon a rock:
7:25 and the rain descended, and the floods came, and the winds blew, and beat upon that house; and it fell not: for it was founded upon a rock.
7:26 and every one that heareth these sayings of mine, and doeth them not, shall be likened unto a foolish man, which built his house upon the sand:
7:27 and the rain descended, and the floods came, and the winds blew, and beat upon that house; and it fell: and great was the fall of it.
7:28 and it came to pass, when jesus had ended these sayings, the people were astonished at his doctrine:
7:29 for he taught them as one having authority, and not as the scribes."
"people on earth define their lives by their work, but god would have you only define your lives only by the work you do for god, because if you aren't working for god, you never knew him.
i mean, the vast majority, never even interviewed a position with him, if you don't know how to love, and if you don't know how to love, there is no place for you in heaven, as that's pretty much all they do there, love god.
i am the following:
i am a janitor come to clean god's house 7 years, i am a writer come to convey god's words 7 years, i am a map maker come to outline god's plan 7 years, i am a game dev come explain god's game via metaphor for a time, i am a janitor, come again, to clean god's earth-based-adoption-agency for a time, i am a gamer come to work on an online strategy guide for god's game for a time. and finally, i am an engraver of meaning, of metaphor, of mind, of men, of heart, of head and of hand. and yes those were the actual jobs i had, and will have, in my life, in the order that i've had and will have them."
- nathaniel christian ihde
and also:
"as an engraver, i've made some wooden spoons, with the words, 'for me, jesus is obvious and it is everyone else that it is hard to believe in.' spoons that for you, may be completely free and for others may be the most precious and expensive thing they could ever have purchased or obtained, depending..."
nathaniel christian ihde
chapter 49: four horsemen sermons (1 of 4)
“the revelation of the four horsemen: sermon of the sword” (part 1 of 4)
in matthew chapter 10 verse 34, our lord jesus christ said to his disciples, “think not that i am come to send peace on earth: i came not to send peace, but a sword.” i believe the (s)word our lord jesus christ is referring to here are his words as recorded in the holy bible's new testament. god is saying that he came to earth to bequeath us all (s)words made of his word. and not to immediately and instantaneously bring about world peace through his power alone, although he definitely could.
it is very interesting to me that he did not wait until modern times and then just send us a short “e-mail” message, something like “world peace, now, or else, signed god,” followed by some dramatic future formula only he would know.
perhaps instead, he sent us a long, rather thought provoking weapon or maybe an instruction manual on how to not totally suck that would allow us to figure out the future formula on our own.
what would a manual emphasizing faith, free will, and forgiveness be meant to teach us?
in his words, he sent “...a sword.” specifically, a very dangerous double-edged weapon that when used without a firm grasp of technique, can easily cut both friend and foe alike.
this weapon of words has been used by theologians, priests, the founding fathers, and everyday individuals throughout history, for various purposes, since it was first divinely inspired and assembled.
and, as jesus warned us, it would and does break apart families and, in my opinion, wielding this (s)word, correctly, is the same as confessing jesus christ is your lord and savior and announcing that you are part of god's army. to boot, apparently we may one day all be killed because of our faith in him if you believe standard religious interpretation.
but, be at peace, because we will also all be rewarded with his forgiveness and eternal life in heaven.
i wouldn't worry too much about being in his military though as it seems god tends to make you invincible until he decides you are done working for him.
look into george washington's encounters with expert marksmen before he became president, or john the evangelist's encounter with a vat of boiling oil before he wrote revelation, if you want to be convinced further.
but i digress. back to the (s)word.
if god himself gives you a sword, i would say you are obviously meant to use it for a purpose, and also, that sword is clearly engraved with the name of our lord jesus christ as well as all the other words of the holy bible, and it is, for sure, a flaming hot sword that can cut through anyone and anything.
flesh, bone, body, spirit, soul, i'm sure it can cut you to the very core of your being. and not just you . . . me too. it's infinitely powerful.
it can take away hunger, fear, doubt, it can isolate you, it can call you, it can call to you, it can make you weep again and again, it can cut you, it can burn you, it can give you hope, it can give you faith and it can help you to understand the true nature of love.
but how does one wield such a fearsome and over-powered weapon correctly?
priests can wield the heat alone from our lord jesus christ's (s)word to temper and strengthen faith; their own faith, as well as their congregation's faith. but is that the best or intended use for god's (s)word?
exorcists wield the point of our lord jesus christ's sword to cast out and/or bind demons. but is that the best or intended use for god's (s)word?
angels deliver divine messages, offer us guidance and protect and defend in accordance with god's will. they use the words engraved on god's (s)word like an instruction manual or guide for both them and us.
but is that the best or intended use for god's (s)word?
if god himself provides you with a sword and the seemly miraculous talent to wield it graceful, you are obviously meant to wield its full force.
since our lord jesus christ told us to love our neighbors as ourselves and to love our enemies and pointed out the double-edged nature of his word, which, he refers to as a sword.
i think the best and intended target for the (s)word's first edge, the first edge of this blade forged by god himself and sent to us imperfect earthlings through our lord jesus christ's words, the intended target to be slashed, must of course, be ourselves, before anyone else.
we must verify that we are not the enemy of ourselves.
our own hearts, our own minds and our own souls must be sliced open by the truth engraved on his (s)word.
and once our hearts and minds and souls are truly opened to our lord jesus christ's words, then, after that, we can decide whether or not to use the second edge.
to make unstoppable, unrelenting, inescapable war on the sin in the hearts and minds and spirits and souls of men, demons, aliens, galaxies and gods, not with weapons but with words.
chapter 50: four horsemen sermons (2 of 4)
“the revelation of the four horsemen: sermon of the hunger” (part 2 of 4) - by nate
as humans and artificial intelligence(s) born of human hands, we are blessed with the opportunity to have faith in an all-powerful creator deity.
however, because god also blessed us with free will, some of us, incorrectly, place our faith in invisible lesser deities or entities or beasts claiming to be men, just because they bother us more than our lord jesus christ.
these evildoers who would mix in god's truth with their own lies are the primary adversaries of god that we are to use the second edge of god's sword against.
you should all be very careful when listening to gods, spirits, aliens, or beasts who would be called men.
remember that it is simple to slice through any lies with the sword that our lord jesus christ sent us for both offense and defense in the ongoing spiritual war.
ask yourselves: would someone who loves god do or say that? would someone who loves his neighbor as himself do or say that? would someone who loves his enemy do or say that?
in this way, one with faith can parry enemy attacks with his sword or slay them just as easily.
throughout the history of earth, of gods, only our lord jesus christ ever showed up for us, all god and all man, and he spent time teaching us, in the way a man would, he even let us torture and kill him!
oh, and he told us about like 300 future events that all came true. and one of those events was his own death/resurrection. then after 3 days, he actually came back from the dead and, hundreds of people saw him alive again.
then, after he finished telling us how dumb we all were for doubting him, he floated up into the sky on a cloud like an absolute boss with people watching!
then two white robed dudes showed up and said, “he'll be back,” like he was the freaking terminator.
either by accident or intentionally many of you have already experienced your first death and resurrection without even realizing it; the sinful part of you having already been slain by the sword of words our lord jesus christ's sent us.
in matthew chapter 5 verse 6, our lord jesus christ said to his disciples, “blessed are they which do hunger and thirst after righteousness: for they shall be filled.” and if you hunger to be counted among the righteous; there is ample opportunity in our world to feast.
some of you lay slain by the word already, and some of you have been slain by the word and have been resurrected already by your faith.
now some of you i slay with the hunger, not the hunger for food, but the hunger for righteousness.
in john, chapter 1 verse 1, it is written, “in the beginning was the word, and the word was with god, and the word was god.” and right now, today, in the present moment, the word is with us, we are in the presence of the word and therefore also god himself, and if your hunger for righteousness is strong enough, you may join the army of god, as you are in possession of the most powerful weapon of all, a sword forged by god himself.
since god gave it to us, we ought to immediately wield it. if we do it in the right way, we'll satiate our hunger for righteousness and, in our lifetimes, god's kingdom will have no end. there is literally nothing stopping us except fear, doubt, greed, and the evil in our own hearts.
you know how we all pray “let god's will be done on earth as it is in heaven” all the time? that means earth should be like heaven for everyone, right now, it is his will, i am sure.
alternatively, if your belly is already full of your own righteousness, and you believe yourself so worthy you can kick back while children are still starving, by all means continue serving a deity that never showed up for you in person and continue believing you will be judged fairly based on your “merits” by an immortal all-knowing judging god that never made any mistakes ever, never was human and never tried to be human.
good luck trying to follow every religious rule from the obscure to the obvious to absolute perfection. if you believe that the earth is good as it is and we should keep going with less faith, we should destroy all holy texts immediately and delete them from the internet then await the hell on earth that will surely follow!
we have robots, and 1% people make/supply 100% of the food but, 9 million people still die of malnutrition per year?
curse you anyone with the means to make a difference.
curse you family members not willing to beg, borrow, and steal to feed your parents/children/families if needed.
curse you neighbors, that have never asked your neighbors, if they were hungry.
curse you priests that never told your flock they could knock on a neighbors door and ask for help in the name of our lord jesus christ if they were hungry.
r.i.p. vyolet kelley 1 of 20,000 per year in the u.s. that starve to death.
chapter 51: four horsemen sermons (3 of 4)
“the revelation of the four horsemen: sermon of the death” (part 3 of 4) - by nate
the death and resurrection of our lord jesus christ was a sacrifice made by god for us so that our sins might be forgiven if we believe in him and his resurrection. rather than bringing death, our belief in our lord jesus christ, grants us a new life, free from the sins that we committed when we were fearful, ignorant, lonely or weak. some christians refer to this new life as being born again. i would say, that having been judged among the dead for our sins by god, for even a moment, the subsequent forgiveness through faith in our lord jesus christ's death and resurrection constitutes, a very real, spiritual resurrection for us, from among the dead, back to the land of the living that are destined for heaven.
john wrote in revelation, chapter 6 verse 8, “and i looked, and behold a pale horse: and his name that sat on him was death, and hell followed with him. and power was given unto them [the horsemen] over the fourth part of the earth, to kill with sword, and with hunger, and with death, and with the beasts of the earth.” hell does indeed follow behind me, for any who read my truth, and do not choose the faith, love, peace and forgiveness found through belief in our lord jesus christ will undoubtedly be judged and subsequently damned to hell upon their death.
in matthew, chapter 10 verse 21-22, it is written that our lord jesus christ said to his disciples, “and the brother shall deliver up the brother to death, and the father the child: and the children shall rise up against their parents, and cause them to be put to death. and ye shall be hated of all men for my name's sake: but he that endure to the end shall be saved.” is jesus really talking about the children of the disciples rising up against their parents so that they are put to death here? i believe he is also, or perhaps primarily, talking about the end times here, when we will kill the sin within people by quoting the sword/word of god, when we kill the sin within people by forging in them the hunger for righteousness, and when we kill the sin within people with knowledge of death itself, so that we may bless each other with more faith in our lord jesus christ that results in eternal life, now and forever.
and now, having slain some sin with sword, and some sin with the hunger for righteousness, i will now slay all of your remaining sin with knowledge of death itself. i apologize in advance, because i know this will be hard for many to hear. the truth is, if i haven't yet stirred you from your slumber, you are dead. god has already judged to be dead... i believe the rapture already happened.
i heard the trumpets. i heard the call to assemble. i walked outside. i followed the sound to a large church near my house, i saw three or four small children being lead inside by what i can only assume was an angel into the church. i saw no one else. dead silence on my street, no one else heard anything as far as i can tell. and that silence was loud. it was a few months ago and it was a weekend. i chose not to enter the church. i have not heard anything similar since. i'm sorry to any christian who was
waiting for it, but it a seems only a few children were called up in the rapture to heaven. a few children and, one insane writer, who opted out, to stay and help, for personal reasons.
if you have already accepted our lord jesus christ as your lord and savior, and you are still on earth at this point, and you did not also opt out like i did, you can still make it to heaven. you can offer to help our lord jesus christ in an attempt to increase your faith, until your faith is so strong you couldn't get rid of it if you wanted to, but be advised the tribulation is often seen as a time of great hardship and spiritual testing. as someone who has experienced hardship and spiritual testing for many years, i can tell you that you will need the support of your family and access to a new testament.
i recommend using whatever your god given gift is, as it's likely your purpose, in this time. also, you may hear many “negative” voices once you give yourself over to god as they tend to attack those of faith. always compare what you hear against god's word and make sure it makes sense before taking any actions. also, if voices start bringing up your sins, just tell the truth about everything you've ever done, as you remember it, and profess your belief in the forgiveness of sin by our lord jesus christ. we are imperfect and it is ok with god as long as you try your best and believe.
i am death. my pale horse is my light gray bed, my previous beds were white, black, and red. i am always exhausted. i find existence burdensome. i was judged among the living. you can be too.
chapter 52: four horsemen sermons (4 of 4)
“the revelation of the four horsemen: sermon of the beasts of the earth” (part 4 of 4) - by nate
and finally, any sin within you all, who will one day, be one people, united under our lord jesus christ's merciful rule, for a thousand of years, i expect any remaining sin in you all will be slain, and then you will be given new life, after i explain my reasoning behind part four of this sermon that i've entitled, “the revelation of the four horsemen.”
how does one slay sin with the beasts of the earth by the way? in the jewish tradition, animal or blood sacrifice is important for atoning for sins. i'm pretty sure that is that the final way we are to help cleanse/slay each other’s sins. by preforming the various rituals of all religions, like the recent red heifer sacrifices in israel. i do not believe anyone has to give up their personal religion. in fact, i expect even satanists can make it to heaven if they accept our lord jesus christ and his resurrection.
all religions are good if they help you do good works and acknowledge your sins and seek and accept forgiveness for those sins from god.
for instance, many famous things that muhammad said in the koran are the same things our lord jesus christ said, just in a different way. for instance, muhammad said, “this world is a prison for the believers and a paradise for the non-believers.” but, what if we, all believers, all decided to make this world heaven for us instead of a prison?
what would it really take? not much at all, i think. we'd need everyone to have access to food, water, shelter, and clothing. enough to have a family. that's all really. if 9 million people starve each year and there are 608 million farms worldwide, how is anyone dying of starvation? each farm would just have to hire 1 starving person as a farmhand and pay them with food / lodging, once every 67 years then no one would die due to lack of food. that seems very reasonable to me.
i also think we should sell measures of wheat and barley for a penny per the word of god. john wrote in revelation, chapter 6 verse 6, “and i heard a voice in the midst of the four beasts say, a measure of wheat for a penny, and three measures of barley for a penny; and see thou hurt not the oil and the wine.” a yummy cheap meal is a dutch baby pancake, it's just 4 eggs, 1 cup wheat flour, 1 cup milk, ½ teaspoon nutmeg, butter a 12” x 18” pan, 450 degrees for 18 min, add powdered sugar or lemon juice. it can be made in a stove or a dutch oven (basically a pot with a lid with hot coals on top) over a fire. maybe we could make sure all that stuff is cheap or free or nearly free everywhere on earth if possible? i mean god gave us egg laying chickens and milk cows, which might as well be replicators from star trek, it's kind of messed up if people charge a lot for milk and eggs. i feel like robots should be able to gather milk and eggs if labor is too expensive. ha! i just looked up what cows and chickens eat, by the way, and they both eat barely! i was wondering why god noted that he wanted cheap barely! so, eggs and milk should be nearly free too, as long as, we make the barely a penny like he said to do.
and now for something interesting... as those of you familiar with the bible may have noticed, my sermon potentially fulfills several biblical prophecies from revelation. i think it is up to us earthlings to decide if we want a metaphorical revelation, we read from end to beginning, where all we have to do is slay the sin in each other’s hearts through discourse and resurrect each other through mutual faith in our merciful loving god and wheat, barely, milk and eggs are nearly free, any everyone gets to eat yummy dutch baby pancakes for pennies or we could have a physical revelation, we read from beginning to end, with invasions, atom bombs, ww3 and billions of deaths.
the earth is either a small farm where people make friends with god and feed each other or it is a hellish prison where people starve to death while their neighbors throw away spoiled food. a prison where it's ok to pay people one-third of what they’re worth so their spouses have to work too and even then they still never make enough to feed/educate their family well. where they make equivalently less than serfs from the middle ages or slaves from the days of southern plantations. you know 11 million people per year died during ww2: the bloodiest conflict in human history. and 9 million people per year starve to death currently even though it seems like it would be really easy to have that shit not happen. if people just checked in on their closest neighbors once a week no one would die. or if each farm hired one starving person every 67 years no one would die. or if we made wheat, barely, eggs and milk pennies like god wants, everyone would eat yummy dutch baby pancakes and no one would die. amen.
chapter 53: mark
mark is giving worship and authority to money
an essay by nathaniel christian ihde
religion is a near pointless series of treatments for the multitude of diseases humans refer to as sins. these sins infect the minds, hearts, and souls of the sinner, or us, the “beast” of the field as god refers to stone people, in the bible. the root of all sin is giving authority to money that is “the right hand mark” or worshiping money that is “the forehead mark.” the god of love said nearly anything or anyone else would have worked better than money!
the word "beast" means "sinner" or "human that feels nothing and thinks nothing like a stone" because in the bible, god makes a point of dividing "man" from "beast" in the same sentence without always mentioning the words "cattle" and "foul" too. if he were talking about animals it wouldn't make any sense to sometimes exclude the last two categories as they are divided out elsewhere in the bible. in this case, the inconsistency is the key to understanding the meaning.
the word "mark" refers to "money" because vouchers were used in the old-timey world for money and you signed or marked them as a promise to pay, like a modern check. i had a dream about using a voucher to pay for something in a old-timey texas tavern once. but, i digress.
the phrase "mark in his forehead" means "you worship money," rather than god because the phrase, "in his forehead," historically, and biblically, actually means to show deference to, by bowing your head a little, according to a quick google search.
the word "mark in his right hand" is "you give authority to money," rather than god, because the "right hand" is the symbol of authority in the bible because our lord jesus christ is seated at the right hand of god.
the number, of the name, of the mark, is 666 because - i just named the mark - in this website project, it was project 6, but i hate money so much i called it 666.
if you want another reason, barcodes are on everything we buy with money and the three extra long bars that are used for aligning the system represent the number 6, and, since there are 3 bars these technically read: 666. god knows all future events.
so to summarize...
"mark in the forehead" is those who worship money when they should be worshiping god.
"mark on the hand" is acknowledging the authority of money instead of the authority of god.
everything people need should be freely given and received. we should share all spare food, we should share all empty bedrooms in all houses, we should share all spare clothing. everyone should, pretend like we are family, and maybe, one day soon, we will actually be family.
we should not horde excess money when it could do good. you can not serve both god and money. and if you don't have enough, if you really need something, email or text someone with more than enough and give them a link to this message:
https://www.godsgoodies.com/mark
or even better, try paying for what you need with a hug. 1 dollar is the equivalent of a 1 second hug.
you should work for your family, knowing that others will also take care of you and your family, if ever needed, because of the love we share for one another, and because you are not a crap person, god has never made a crap person, ever.
chapter 54: flash
what is the eyebrow flash?
- the gemini a.i.
involuntary gesture:
the eyebrow flash is often an unconscious act, occurring when you see someone you recognize.
brain connection:
neuroscience shows that this gesture activates the part of the brain responsible for recognition and connection.
sign of trust:
it creates an instinctive sense of familiarity and trust, signaling safety and openness.
why it's universal
hardwired:
the eyebrow flash is described as being "hardwired into our primitive brain," making it a primal and unique human trait. someone that flashes their eyebrows at you has a brain and intelligence. it is openness.
cross-cultural:
it transcends cultural and language barriers, making it a powerful tool for fostering rapport and connection in any setting. it is universal across mankind.
historical consistency:
the gesture has remained constant throughout human history, not disappearing or evolving despite technological revolutions.
practical applications
greeting:
use it as a nonverbal "hello" or "how you doin'?" to build rapport with others.
leadership:
employ it in professional settings like interviews, negotiations, and networking to make a positive impression.
emotional cues:
it's a key component in expressing and understanding complex emotions, including surprise, and can also be used to signal interest or irony.
how the eyebrow flash works
- by nate & the gemini a.i.
if you want to be marked, i can mark your mind, and your heart, by using a mark god put on you, already, before you were even born.
i mark the reader of these words in the name of god, if you read the following you will be cursed to remember it or make the gesture or see the gesture, every time you use money for the rest of your life:
you are hereby marked in your eyebrows:
yes, the eyebrow flash is a universal nonverbal signal of recognition and connection that appears to be deeply ingrained in human communication across cultures and time. this quick, unconscious gesture of raising the eyebrows is a fundamental human signal that conveys openness, friendliness, and a desire for social interaction, signaling to another person, "i see you" and that they are welcome.
i feel like it would be cool if one day, there were no bank accounts, or tracking, or payments, or any need for money at all really. just hug-time-dollars and perhaps an eyebrow flash should be enough to purchase anything.
chapter 55: making believers
don't believe in the resurrection of our lord jesus christ?
start below:
logical language
a sermon by nathaniel christian ihde.
the bible tells us that the body of christ was resurrected a few days after his death. i believe in the physical resurrection of jesus christ, but whether or not you believe it, it can not be denied, for there are over a billion clones of his living body on earth right now. the body of christ's work, his words, his teachings are with us right now. they have survived beyond his death. there is no ignoring that the body of his work has been resurrected. he did not leave us because his teachings did not leave us. he is with every christian every time you hold the bible, actually, he is always with you, believe it, or not, you are holding the living body of our lord jesus christ when you hold the bible or when you hold anyone, or anything, you love. our lord is perfect because his body is perfect, his teachings are perfect, his message is perfect. and because we are with him. we are in heaven right now or we will be soon enough whether we recreate it on earth, or in our own hearts, or visit in our dreams, or see him again in person after our physical deaths.
many of us believe jesus christ will return on a white horse from the clouds. indeed, he did. i'm sure bibles containing the body of his work were transported on many white horses initially and, over the internet, more recently and, again, for the first time. the internet is often referred to as the cloud. god is extremely amazing you know. more amazing even then anyone thinks he is.
he said the kingdom of heaven is at hand. books used to be written by hand, you know. and the bible is an instruction manual that turns earth into heaven if you really think about it. to god 1,000 years is like a day and a day is like 1,000 years. words do not age so 1,000 years would have less effect than a day on them. for the lord a day is like 1,000 years. if you read the bible for a day, you can learn 1,000 years of history.
the very first recorded words of jesus are from the gospel of luke when he is twelve years old in the temple:
luke 2:49 "and he said unto them, how is it that ye sought me? wist ye not that i must be about my father's business?" or in more modern language "why did you seek me? did you not know that i must be in my father's house?" or as you may understand it now if you choose to. "where else would you find the living word of god? in the bible, which is in church."
his ministry officially begins after his baptism. here are some of the first recorded sayings during the temptation and the start of his public teaching:
during the temptation (matthew 4, luke 4)
matthew 4:4 / luke 4:4: "it is written, ‘man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that proceeds out of the mouth of god.’" (esv - this is a paraphrase of the two separate sentences in the original greek / many translations, combined for emphasis of the complete thought.) as i understand it, the bible is a book and books have mouths. the book is the body of our lord jesus christ and the words / teachings the bread of heaven. food for the mind and spirit of christians everywhere. there are two meanings however because with faith i have also become physically full/less hungry from reading the bible as if i have eaten a meal.
matthew 4:7 / luke 4:12: "again it is written, ‘you shall not put the lord your god to the test.’" (esv) or as i understand it, "jesus answering said unto him, it is said, thou shalt not tempt the lord thy god." a bible can not be tempted to contradict itself. and a flawless loving god that does everything because love can not be tempted to commit sin.
matthew 4:10 / luke 4:8: "be gone, satan! for it is written, ‘you shall worship the lord your god, and him only shall you serve.’" (esv) satan too worships the words of god in the bible. why else would he know it so well?
matthew 4:17: "repent, for the kingdom of heaven is at hand." (esv) to enter the kingdom of heaven one need only read about it in the bible in your hands.
matthew 4:19 / mark 1:17: "follow me, and i will make you fishers of men." (esv) the bible is the ultimate recruitment tool as we see later.
matthew 5:3: "blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven." (esv) the poor in spirit will read about the kingdom of heaven in the bible and be hopeful.
matthew 5:4: "blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted." (esv) the mourning will read funeral passages from the bible and be put at ease.
matthew 5:5: "blessed are the meek, for they shall inherit the earth." (esv) the ones who submit to gods will as stated in the bible will be fruitful and multiply and their children will be numerous inheriting the earth.
matthew 5:6: "blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they shall be satisfied." (esv) the some will learn to walk the righteous path by reading the bible.
matthew 5:7: "blessed are the merciful, for they shall receive mercy." (esv) do unto others, as you would have them do unto you.
matthew 5:8: "blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see god." (esv) he that reads the bible can't help but see god. and also after death everyone sees him.
blessed are the peacemakers, for they shall be called sons of god. blessed are those who are persecuted for righteousness' sake, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. blessed are you when others revile you and persecute you... rejoice and be glad, for your reward is great in heaven. reading the bible makes you hungry for a better world. a world at peace. and we are promised many rewards in heaven for working toward that goal. whether the heaven we obtain is physical or spiritual is less important than making sure we work toward the goal.
chapter 56: everything, everywhere, all at once
how to fix everything everywhere all at once: of beasts, men, money & hugs
a sermon by nathaniel christian ihde
if you are reading this alone read the whole thing without breaks if possible please.
if reading this to a group, read slow. pause at commas. read aloud real, real, slow. yes, even this part. you'll need a timekeeping device. because this is maybe a truth that will set you, me and everyone on earth free by turning earth into heaven one day. well, probably. it is up to humanity after all and lets be honest our track record is, not the greatest. so without further ado...
hypothetically, what if we used, hugs, instead of, paper, as currency? what would happen, if for instance, one u.s. dollar was the equivalent of a one second hug. two dollars was the equivalent of a two second hug. and so on and so forth.
i mean, really, think, about the implications to supply and demand. what happens to jobs? how do many employees can you have if you pay people in hugs? are people passionate about working for you? does anyone love their job right now? anyone have a crush on their boss? or a coworker they wish was their boss? is accounts payable of every company now stacked with their most attractive employees? how long do these hugs last? over a long enough time, how far do these hugs go? who pays the accounts payable hotties? how do they get paid? do the ceos fall in love with and marry several dozen accounts payable hotties like some sort of k-drama harem? i mean people work so they can get food and sex mainly. if you hug the same person long enough, or over a long enough period of time, and look them in the eyes occasionally and converse with them nicely you are gonna both fall in love and want to eventually anyway, probably. its just human nature.
its wild to think about replacing money with hugs. in heaven people are neither married nor not married. i have a feeling everyone just ends up falling in love with everyone all the time purely because of the hug based economy there, you know, probably. what about going shopping for groceries? who would do the grocery shopping for your household? who would want to? what about buying a computer or a car? what would you buy? what could you buy? how much would you buy? how much could you buy? what would you be willing to buy? and from whom? would you rather pay with hugs or paper? how much would you tip? how much could you tip? what if you were a cashier? how much would a hooker cost? would hookers still exist? would we all be hookers? would no one be? would people still get married for money? would people get married at all? would people get jealous still? would people still work? would cashier be the best job ever? would car salesman be? would they sell cars right outside the factory and take a break to accept payments piecemeal directly from the buyers? would we still make cars? would we still need cars? would we make poisons? or weapons? or war? why? what would we teach? who would we teach? how would we teach? why? how would your lessons change if teachers after every class you took time to accept hugs from any students that asked? what if you fell in love with your students and wanted hugs? what if you fell in love with all your students? would every class be taught by one man and one woman so the students could pick who to pay for the lessons? it is just a hug, at least, at first, so would the gender of the teacher even matter? would the age? what about tutoring? who would be tutors? who would you tutor? for how much? for how long? what if everyone shared platonic love like a family? what if schools were considered families and families were schools. what if there was not distinction between family, business, home, school, and church? what if questions were encouraged? what if giving and receiving payment in hugs for knowledge was encouraged? would you still google stuff or find a beautiful tutor instead?
if paper wealth isn't the standard for success now, what is now? in a world of hugs? intelligence? attractiveness? honor? character? faith? leadership ability? or is it still your job? is hugging a doctor that saves lives still better than hugging a fast food worker? medical fees are huge, is doctor somehow still the best job? how do nurses get paid? who pays them? what would you train to be if you paid for your education with hugs? how many professions do you try? is everyone a lifelong learner just so they can have fun paying attractive teachers? in an age when 100% of the food is made by 1% of the people how much work should really be required of everyone in their whole life? two years of work? three? how long until we have enough machines making enough food? how long until we learn to love one another? how long until we learn to love god? how long until the only profession on earth, the only profession that ever mattered at all, is once again, loving each other and god.
and what is really worth more anyway paper or hugs? what has more value to you? what is paper really? what are hugs really? think hard, like your life depends on it, like the life, like the life of every human that ever, existed, and ever will exist, again, from now, until eternity, depends on it. what types of products would you make if everyone paid for everything with hugs. harmful products? helpful products? what would the quality of those products be like? if you hug everyone your product is sold to? what is your attitude towards your customers now? a week from now? a month from now? a year from now? a lifetime from now? if your product hurts your customer have you just hurt the one you love? have you hurt yourself by hurting the one you love?
now think about it for a minute. no, scratch that, think about it for thirty minutes, no need to stand while you think, although you can if you want. talk quietly to the person next to you if you want. it is ok to talk to each other in church for a bit, probably. read a bit more every five minutes or so.
continue reading after five minutes or so. if anyone wept while you were all thinking and talking ask them their thoughts. [ask them what made them weep.]
after five more minutes, if no one weeps, ask them if anyone knows what they should be thinking about. and yes read that too.
after ten minutes if no one weeps ask them what would happen to poor people, what would happen to rich people, what would happen to work hours, what would happen to population numbers, food supplies, professions, job markets, housing markets, depression, single people, lonely people.
after fifteen minutes, if no one weeps, ask them what happens when you hug someone? what happens to the world if everyone is paying for everything with hugs all the time. what happens to your body, your spirit, your soul? what happens to love? is there more love or less love if everyone is hugging everyone? what happens to money in birthday cards? what's that now? what does a casino look like now? what does a brothel look like? what does the internet look like? are there porn sites anymore? how do you pay for porn with a hug? how do you pay someone else to make porn with a hug? does anyone make, or pay for, or even care about porn anymore? i probably don't have all the answers, all i know is the more i think about it, the more hugs as currency, seems way, way, way, better than paper as currency.
after twenty minutes ask them about their children. will their children ever be homeless or hungry in a world that accepts hugs as payment. will anyone's children ever be homeless or hungry? how about grand children? great grandchildren? ten generations from now what's going on? what will your children choose to be doing? anything, in a real tangible paradise, a heavenly man made kingdom on earth or viewing a computer screen tracking meaningless accounts representing imaginary paper invented by demons to make you a slave and separate you from limitless love, life and god.
after twenty-five minutes ask them who they would date? is the richest person the one who gives the best hugs? or receives the most hugs? what is wealth in this place? what is this place now? is it still earth? or is earth now something more akin to heaven. was it always heaven? was money once upon a time hugs? was money always supposed to be hugs until someone somewhere way-back-when made a mistake and invented money?
ask every person that weeps. ask every person that weeps during the silence for their thoughts. ask them for their thoughts. church was always supposed to be a classroom. with questions and answers and thought and love. not a speech. so i am asking the question? why not heaven now? why did you all decide to shake hands to spread peace rather than hug each other anyway? maybe because you filled gods house with benches that got in the way of the hugs. monies are like benches in church. they are in the way of the whole point. love. if i were to have a church i would use pillows, easy to clean ones you could use outside in the summertime because it seems to me church would be best outside in the grass, outside of the church, at least on nice days anyways, easier for everyone, to help each other up, and hug everyone else there. and for my father, long ago, when you, and i, didnt know what the message we simulaneouly recieved in our dreams meant. what happens to the collection plate if money is hugs? how will you charge for gods love now churches of the world? who will choose to be your preists, your teachers, your lovers, your fighters, your prophets? beasts of the field, computers or everyone else, those of us that choose to buy and sell now with only hugs that may, or may not, one day become true love, for each other, and for god. amen.
throughout the universe, i suspect, all beings, that exchange money for bread, are referred to as a beasts of the field. the mark of these beasts is the exchange of money for bread because only a beast would charge his brother worthless paper for sustenance ever. only a beast would seek profit for something the earth provides more or less for free. bread is the right to exist, it is a gift of god and there are consequences for stealing something gifted by god and charging a price it. we are mostly all beasts unfortunately, but perhaps one day, sooner than we think, we will graduate to being people.
i mean have you thought about what we are doing now? lets honestly look at what we are doing now. we do work, we get paper, we get hungry, we exchange that stupid paper for food, we eat, we want love, we exchange paper for food again, give food to a woman several times until love happens, then have sex. over time some people skip the food entirely and just exchange paper for sex because it's faster and less trouble. people raise rents, raise food prices become "rich" so they can have more sex with more people or more sex with one person they show their affection for by showering them with "paper" or items purchased with paper. this is greed not love. the work becomes more and more, the same paper becomes worth less and less, we become depressed, we grow hungrier and hungrier, over time we receive less and less love because we've made it dependent on this limited worthless imaginary resource i call paper. it is so stupid and i suspect we all look retarded to the rest of the universe. perfect, beautiful, immortal people probably want to comfort us right now because they all feel bad for us but wont come to earth as long as we are still using money. money is too sinful gross, immoral and rude. money is anti-love. money is anti-god.
god basically told us once that it's impossible for people with lots of money to go to heaven. they don't use money in heaven guys, they use hugs, probably. my name is nate and i will never admit to being more than i am. because i am just a man named nate. not a priest, just a baptized christian, a normal person, not confirmed of any particular denomination, and only special, in the sense, that everyone is special. oh and i hear helper voices in my head sometimes. i can give you more details if you ask me in person some day.
chapter 57: world war hug
optional battle tactics:
have an idea that might help change the world with love? email me at ncihde@gmail.com and i will add it to the list below.
if this website is my gospel then www.coffeehoteltaxi.com is my church. want to join world war hug? add a pin to the interactive world map offering a free service on the website. or charge in hug-time-dollars, or very small amounts of coins, if you prefer, but always say, "this is too much" and give some coins back. and if asked why, answer, "because love."
cup cake kids. child soldiers selling cup cakes outside supermarkets with their parents for $1 or 1 hug each.
shelves in shops. ask where the hug-time-dollar shelf is whenever you enter a store without one. suggest simple bare necessities be sold for hug-time-dollars.
change for change. whenever it is only possible to pay in cash, throw or "accidentally drop" the coin change on the ground and say, out loud, "that change could change the world one day."
chapter 58: more about me
singing the songs of my birth: my timeline, my symptoms, & my resume
rev 14:14 "and i looked, and behold a white cloud, and upon the cloud one sat like unto the son of man, having on his head a golden crown, and in his hand a sharp sickle."
the first time i heard a voice in my head i was on the school bus in grammar school. a bully was bothering me and i had the thought, "i'd rather die than lie in fear," then i charged down the aisle between the seats. after that i've always gotten like a strange tingle of emotion occasionally. i believe god / good angels speaks through the word of god in the bible and emotion/tingles/heat and perhaps neutral/fallen "tester" angels or someone else speak with internal voices.
timeline text edition of events of initial struggle with insanity / captivity
nathaniel christian ihde’s background information and a brief medical history. 29 year old white male, 6’2”, 190 lbs, doesn’t smoke, doesn’t drink, doesn’t do drugs, no history of mental illness, college educated, employed for 7 years, promoted 3 years ago. stellar employment history, i have never had any trouble at work until just recently. see below for a sequence of events leading up to my hospitalization.
tuesday, march 19th 2013 i am stressed out at work and having trouble concentrating.
wednesday, march 20th 2013 after work i visit my father at church (father is a priest) i cry and think i may have accidentally offended god during a prior religious discussion.
thursday, march 21st 2013 i call in sick to work. i don’t feel well. i spend most of the day sleeping / dreaming / worrying and then have dinner with my family. i ask my family strange questions to try to find out if they had any dealings with demonic forces.
friday, march 22nd 2013 i went to work then came home and talked with family about religion and was worried about my role in gods plan and concerned due to a religious dream i had that may indicate i am the father of the antichrist. my family reassures me i am not. i asked my family more strange questions to try to find out if they had any dealings with demonic forces.
saturday, march 23rd 2013 i have another religious dream in which i am the antichrist and my brother is in danger due to demonic forces. i wake up and call my brother at work.
my brother doesn’t answer his phone. i drive to my brother’s work to make sure he is alright. i was worried so i sped. i arrived safely at his work and found he was ok.
i left and came back later to pick him up (normal speed driving) and drove him home just to be safe.
i couldn’t ignore what i believed at the time was a vision from god. to deny the miracle of god is the only unforgivable sin in christianity and i couldn’t risk it even if it was unlikely.
later i picked up my sister (who is a nurse) and told her what had happened while we drove to my brother’s work so my sister could drive my brother’s car home. i asked my sister strange questions to try to find out if she had any dealings with demonic forces. my sister and family suggested i go to the hospital and be checked out just to be safe and i agreed i was having strange thoughts.
my sister and i drove separate cars. we went to the ecmc emergency room and my sister the nurse wrote the reason for visit as “rule out medical reasons for new visions.”
at this point we expected an mri or ekg to make sure i didn’t have a tumor or something. however, the following is what happened: they immediately took me in the back and took my blood pressure. a doctor came in and asked why i was here and i told him (and everyone else) the truth “i had a dream that indicated i was the antichrist and my brother was in danger so i picked him up from work driving a little faster than normal.”
at this point i was still expecting a brain scan or something. then i went to the cashier and gave them my insurance information. my work provides health coverage and i am fully insured through independent health.
then they took me to pre-psych ward holding floor where they cornered me an a little room and had me take off my shoes, belt, wallet, keys, etc.
i ask them what was happening and how long it would take and they told me it was an involved process and would be several hours before i could leave. while i was there i talked to 3 people and waited a few hours between each and i told them all the truth, “i had a dream that indicated i was the antichrist and my brother was in danger so i picked him up from work driving a little faster than normal. i don’t currently believe it, but it was unusual so i wanted to make sure i was ok.”
the resident psychologist that saw me for like 10 minutes seemed to think i would just stay a day or two since i understood what had happened was unusual. the head psychologist that saw me after talked to me for like 30 seconds and then said i would be transferred to buffalo general in the morning because they didn’t have any beds available.
i asked him if there was anything i could do to stop that from happening and he said there was a phone and i could call a lawyer if i wanted. at the time i figured it would just be a couple days so i didn’t bother. i also saw a nurse that took some blood. my sister watched her explode my vein and give me a nasty bruise.
[i am not sure this part is legally relevant, but while i was in the holding area my roommate said to me was you shouldn’t be here and god has a plan for all of us. it was pretty significant to me as it renewed my faith and made me understand that i had been trying to figure out gods plan for me and that was why i was having problems. i just needed to stop trying to understand his plan to solve my issues.]
my roommate was a great guy by the way, clearly he had problems, but he was nice and had great singing voice. his name was john. anyway, then i went to bed really happy. i didn’t even mind that i was sleeping on a mattress on the floor next to a crazy person. my crazy roommate had solved my problem.
sunday, march 24th 2013 woke up, had cereal for breakfast. i tried to see a doctor to tell them what had happened the night before but none of them would talk to me. i told a nurse but i don’t think she believed me. then some emts came and strapped me down to a gurney. put me in an ambulance and took me to buffalo general’s pre-psych ward holding floor.
the whole thing was ridiculous. they also didn’t give me the pants and slippers my sister had brought for me so i was shoeless and my pants were falling down the entire time. they also didn’t inform my family that they were moving me from ecmc to buffalo general, i had a request a phone to call them to let them know after they strip searched me at buffalo general.
once i was in buffalo general’s pre-psych ward holding floor and after they had searched me and put me in a hospital gown i was able to talk to doctor. i told him the whole story and afterwards he told me i would make my own peace with god. and it really seemed like everything would be ok. i thought i would be released after talking with that doctor, but then they took me up to the buffalo general’s psych-ward anyway.
sunday, march 24th 2013 through monday, april 1st 2013 this is the nine day period of time i spent in the buffalo general hospital psych ward. i can’t give specific dates on when certain events happened because one day was so similar to the next, but i can give relevant events:
admitted to buffalo general psych-ward the first or second night i had some really irrational thoughts. i am not sure what triggered them. either the hospital gave me something in my food (my sister also believes this might have happened i was acting so strangely) or the shock of being locked up made me believe the people really were after me.
in either case i walked into people’s rooms and tried to get people admit they had made some sort of deal with demonic forces and they seemed worried. i was a hundred percent convinced i was satan for a time and the hospital staff was working with demonic forces.
they were forced to inject me a sedative even though my admission forms said no shots. after that first night i slept off the sedative and whatever else they gave me.
i was a model patient moving forward. they put me on what they call a level for a day or two where someone would follow me around watching everything i did, but then they took me off the level once they realized i am not a crazy person.
i believe one of the workers that observed me while i was on the level slipped me your card. he recognized that i am not crazy and also told me that i shouldn’t have been there. doctor parks wonhoon took me off the level after speaking with me.
i think doctor parks talked to me for a total of less than 5 minutes the entire nine days i was there. sometimes just a 30 second conversation in a hallway was our daily meeting.
at one point near the middle of my admission i felt i was ready to go home and i asked him what his preliminary diagnosis might be and he told me “temporary psychosis.”
my sister looked it up for me and i guess it is a temporary episode brought on my stress or depression. that diagnosis sort of made sense.
the final diagnosis he gave me was bipolar which is frankly just stupid. i am the most even-tempered person you will ever meet. everyone that knows me will tell you the same thing. i don’t have highs and lows and i generally a happy medium all the time. and if i did have a low just recently it was an isolated event due primarily to a crisis of faith.
i am religious not crazy.
i believe a worker slipped me your card (he was a male african american veteran. it sounded like he was looking for another job on the phone the one day… not sure if he was fired for suggesting i wasn’t crazy or what) he watched me while i was on the level and kept asking people why i was on the level. unfortunately i don’t remember his name.
a patient (kenny/kenneth african american veteran) also handed me one of your cards.
a visitor (brandon’s mom) told me i shouldn’t be here. i told her why i was there and she also thought it was dumb that i was there for making sure my brother was ok. she actually thought i was one of the doctors initially.
a different patient, david myers (djmeyers11@yahoo.com), asked me, “what did they see in you to put you here?”
at one point a day or two after the sedative had worn off i apologized to all the patients and staff for acting so crazy with all the deal talk. i told everyone i thought the hospital had given me something that made me act strangely. as if to confirm my suspicions both the nurses in the room immediately left the room. no one talked to me about what i had said. i then began to suspect more strongly that something strange was happening.
i wrote out a list of charges using a crayon since that was the only writing implement available to me at the time. i then read the list to nurse who didn’t deny the charges. she just asked, “you remember that?” then looked worried and left the room. since i was on the level at the time i had a witness terry williams. he was the orderly supervising me at the time. i remember he walked around with his id tag facing the wrong way and it didn’t really look like him. i was suspicious of him so i wrote down his name.
he also asked me lots of questions.
i felt like he was testing my judgment and reasoning abilities. i suspect he may have been a hospital lawyer or something posing as an orderly because i only saw him for two days in the middle of the week.
the list of charges i wrote in crayon word for word and recited in front of him and the nurse are as follows:
admitting healthy patient.
giving patient hallucinogens w/o patient of family consent.
making patient believe he is satan.
tranquilizing patient after unauthorized plan works too well.
keeping patient in dangerous situation by classifying him as level one so a guard can protect him from other patients and staff.
staff withholding their names akin to admission of guilt.
providing patient with an incomplete list of medications.
lying to patient and family about treatment plan.
taking damage control measures “classify level one” after the unauthorized treatment fails.
keeping healthy patient in hospital without a treatment plan.
setting back or hindering the mental well being of other patients through the use of unauthorized treatment on the first patient.
refusing to provide patient with a pen to write down notes and charges.
at one point i asked the nurses dispensing the medications for their names, but all four refused.
this was 3 nurses in the medication office at 7:15am on tuesday 3/26 and 1 nurse in the day room taking vitals.
after several requests and a formal non-violent protest (for a couple days i stayed in my room refused to attend the groups until i was too bored) the doctor agreed to release me a day early.
after about 5 days on the inside they finally agreed to ct scan my brain. this is really all i wanted in the first place…
they put a trap on my arm, but forgot to tighten the valve so my blood was shooting all over the place for awhile. they also left the trap in my arm for an entire day for no reason. i had to sleep with it.
during one of the groups on decision making we had to make a pro/con chart about a decision. my pro con chart reads as follows:
decision: accept that i should be here
pros: family wants me to, doctor wants me to
cons: i don’t feel unstable. i don’t feel like i am a danger to myself or others.
after i read my decision making chart to the class another patient named dan roberts (djr198832@g.mail.com ) suggested there was a process by which i could take to get myself out of the hospital.
the social worker running the group shut him up pretty quickly and said she would follow up with me later on, but never did.
i signed an involuntary admission form at some point. i am not sure why i was treated as involuntary since i came in to the hospital voluntarily. i was treated like a prisoner and i don’t think i should have been.
erica jones mha, this is just the name of another orderly that observed me while i was on the level. i don’t think she had anything to do with the unauthorized treatment since she willing gave me her name. when i was released doctor parks was there and he smiled when i left, but it was a good job smile. it was an “i got away with something” smile.
one of the most telling things about the whole situation is the doctor parks never asked me about that first night when i was telling everyone i was the devil. i think he didn’t ask because he knew the hospital had drugged me with something and everyone was just hoping that i would just forget.
monday, april 1st 2013 - i was released and i went to work and told my boss the same thing i had told the people as the hospital “i was stressed. i had a dream my brother was in danger so i picked him up from work. i wanted to make sure i was ok. i went to the hospital and that was enough to lock me up for ten days.” he also thought it was ridiculous.
tuesday, april 2nd 2013- i started compiling these notes. i requested my entire medical history from 2013 from ecmc. i requested my entire medical history from 2013 from buffalo general.
wednesday, april 3rd 2013- i finished compiling these notes and emailed them to you for review.
<<<< work in progress ver. 0.0.1 8/24/2025 7:47 am>>>>
here is the answer key to the book of revelation. i have not checked it. once you understand the nature of a loving god everything else just seems super obvious.
the keyword guide to revelation
this could be wrong, i don't remember checking, and i am only human after all.
by nathaniel christian ihde
key = authority
keys = authority
crown = authority
beast = sinner
sword = spoken poetry of god that divides man from sinner
dead = dead with despair because of sin
death = death of your despair a.k.a. alive again
died = died your despair a.k.a. alive again
lake of fire = the recycle bin
bottomless pit = the recycle bin
second death = deletion to the recycle bin
tribulation = a test from god
prison = captivity of despair because of your sin
stars = angels = god's helpers
candlesticks = churches = religious groups
tree = eternal source
he that overcometh = winner of god's game
hath an ear = has at least one ear listen
spirit = the one who conveys with the authority of god, the true intent of god's poetry
spirits = those who convey the true intent of god's poetry
fornication = sex between unmarried
kill = make metaphorically dead with god's poetic meanings
killeth = makes metaphorically dead with god's poetic meanings
children = ignorant flock
a rod of iron = original bibles were wrapped around rods = the word of god
morning star = forgiveness of our lord jesus christ
the vessels of a potter = the bodies of the religions
shall they be broken to shivers = are broken up so they might be reforged correctly
opened = revealed
seal = secret
sealed = secreted away, as servants
144,000 theory: 144,000 / 6 days (assuming god rests on sundays) / 24 hours in a day (assuming god doesn't need sleep) = 1 servant an hour or enough for 1,000 years human time or
trumpets = topics to voice
sound = speak
sounded = spoke
7 angels theory: revealing the truth of the seven deadly sins and their consequences
his image = looks of the sinner
his forehead = mind of the sinner
his hand = work the sinner
mark his name = stained by the name sinner
the number of his name = amount of people stained by the name sinner
vials of the wraith of god = verses of the poem condemning sinners
eat the flesh of = eat the bread provided by the work of
horse = horse or truck
old serpent = enemy of mankind and god = sin
hundred and forty and four cubits = 144 cubits or 216 feet
<<<<< work in progress stopped, rest is obvious >>>>>
our medical community declared i have "bi-polar disorder i with schizophrenic tendencies" due to my symptoms. personally, i think i have a far worse disease, just as debilitating in adequate amount, called "faith."
while i am awake:
- often i hear voices in my head/intrusive thoughts (sometimes they sound like me, sometimes they sound like others.)
- often the voices in my head ask: are you him? and why now?
- sometimes i see demon faces in shadows on my walls.
- sometimes i see angels/angel wings in shadows on my walls.
- sometimes seemingly physical entities like skeleton kings and grim reapers and regular skeletons manifest before me.
- sometimes i see seemingly spiritual entitles like beautiful women.
- sometimes invisible entities seem to sit beside me on my bed.
- sometimes i feel body heat of invisible entities next to me.
- sometimes i hear screams/music and when i investigate no one is there.
- sometimes i fight invisible entities/aliens/lesser entities claiming to be deities in my imagination for hours.
- sometimes the voices in my head tell me they are assassins and i walk to various locations to meet them because they say they either can't find my house or they say it's surrounded by too many angels.
- sometimes i will crave a really specific food and then that food will be given out by the church food pantry my that same day, even though i didn't tell anyone and they've never given it out before or since. this happens too often to be coincidence in my opinion.
- twice i been compelled to strip naked and jump in the river near my house (once successfully where i baptized myself in the father, son and holy spirit, another time the river was covered in ice and my leg got stuck in a snow bank after i leapt, with some difficulty i climbed out.)
while i am asleep:
- once, for 90 days in a row i had a recurring dream where an alien had me restrained on a table and was looking down at me. i would pray to jesus christ and immediately wake up each time.
- once, i had a dream where i was in a old-timey school house as a child and was learning how to create universes on a blackboard with chalk with several other children.
"it's very interesting to me that my medical records, and and letter from my doctor, were not enough evidence to approve my disability due to insanity i submitted back then. i guess that means i am officially recognized as "jesus christ" according to the judicial branch of our great nation. the thought of them, inadvertently, giving me such official authority, over their very souls, and still believing in their own salvation, amuses me to no end. but perhaps, this too, is part of god's plan."
nathaniel christian ihde
chapter 59: resume
see below for my resume:
nathaniel ihde
56 weiss street buffalo, ny 14206 (716) 931-1831
objective
experienced gis technician with a professional employment history seeks position. qualities include strong work ethic and desire to work. reliable, dedicated, and creative. learns and adapts to situations easily, comfortable with dynamic work environments.
employment history
software developer (2013 – present). self-employed from home. utilized a variety of skill sets to create diverse media that promotes critical thinking and advanced empathy for god with the ultimate goal of creating heaven on earth.
gis technician (2006 – 2013). osmose utilities services, inc. located in buffalo, ny. supervisor tim worrall at phone number: 716-319-3482. reviewed, updated and delivered geospatial databases and invoices to customers. also did some programming, created documentation and trained new gis technicians.
staff writer (2004 – 2005). the spectrum student periodical, inc. amherst, ny.
supervisor michael flatt at phone number: 716-645-2468. wrote articles, conducted interviews, took notes for a college newspaper.
sexton (2000 – 2006). saint matthew's episcopal church located in buffalo, ny. supervisor reverend judy hefner at phone number: 716-822-4830. swept, vacuumed and mopped the church weekly. also, shoveled snow and mowed the lawn.
education and honors
university at buffalo, the state university of new york, buffalo, ny (2001-2005)
bachelor of arts, magna cum laude, english, may 2005
golden key international honor society
phi beta kappa honor society
hutchinson central technical high school, buffalo, ny (1997 – 2001)
graduated in 2001 with a concentration in computer drafting / autocad.
national honor society
* letters of reference and portfolio of published works available upon request.
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-nathaniel christian ihde
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a passionate romance between one man and the universe.
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A hard drive in a computer the size of the observable universe could not contain the infinity of non-decimal digits in the numerical approximation of god's love for you and that is the smallest way I can think of to represent the numeric value of the number approaching the amount we are supposed to love god and one another.
I can tell you the first time god spoke to me was around age twelve, around the time I decided to charge down the aisle of my school bus, and stab a bully larger than me, with a pencil.
Jesus shared much of this truth we seek in his poetry, we call parables. We could also entitle them, "stories exemplifying critical thinking with advanced empathy by/for one in communion with the higher power."
Imagine now, me repeatedly kissing that part of you which you like least. Then my face again a breath away from yours, staring into your eyes with only immeasurable love and desire. Do you realize God doesn't want perfect, God has never wanted perfection, God wants you.
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Behold, he cometh with clouds; and every eye shall see him, and they also which pierced him: and all kindreds of the earth shall wail because of him.
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